"As we go on, we remember, all the times we spent together..."
Wow, last day of highschool ever was yesterday. It is so wierd to think that I never have to go inside of SCS ever again. I think it is the saddest thing to think about the people that I may only see again at graduation. I love our class and it is so sad to think about going all of our seperate ways. The day was fun, we didn't do anything in classes except eat cookies and brownies and drink coffee. Haha, I love it. But after school was fun. Natalie and I went and walked around 12 Oaks for like a couple hours, I bought some cute pants, she bought a really cute shirt, and then we met Mark and Max and Erma's for dinner. We were just cracking up the whole time. They are so funny. Then we headed back to my house and then to Rachel's for a bonfire. It was kind of cold and rainy for the fire at first, so we hung out in her basement for a while, but it cleared up so we went outside and made the fire. It was so nice. People looked like they were having so much fun. Every new person was greeted with "hey, remember when we were in highschool..." Haha. I love how no matter who is there, we all could get along and all had fun talking all night. So when we were done there, Mark took Natalie and I back to my house and we fell asleep watching She's All That. Great movie by the way. I love it. Ah, sad to think about the things that are changing, yet strangely exciting.
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So the bonfire was kinda hard. There were so many couples that looked so cute, Jesse and Ryan, Chelsey and Ben, Ashley and Jeff, etc. and it made me miss Joshua SO much. I think that it was the hardest sitting on Rachel's couch and talking to Ashley about her already made wedding plans. I wish that I had some bit of security about that. I know that I don't want to get married like this summer, but I wish I at least knew that it would happen sometime soon. I mean, we have been together for 3 and a half years! I don't think that I want to date him for 5 years before we get married! That is just crazy. I don't know. Maybe I am just being sentimental because he isn't here. I just wish that I knew what he was thinking sometimes about getting married... he is so bad at giving me a real answer because so much of our future is still unstable with college, living situations, job stuff, etc. Ah, I wish that I could go back to kindergarden, things were so much easier.
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Today I woke up late for work (again) and made it here only like 8 minutes late. So tonight I am going to do the laundry that I have been telling my mom I will do, then take a nap, and then go out and party somewhere. I am just in the mood to go have fun.
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So the bonfire was kinda hard. There were so many couples that looked so cute, Jesse and Ryan, Chelsey and Ben, Ashley and Jeff, etc. and it made me miss Joshua SO much. I think that it was the hardest sitting on Rachel's couch and talking to Ashley about her already made wedding plans. I wish that I had some bit of security about that. I know that I don't want to get married like this summer, but I wish I at least knew that it would happen sometime soon. I mean, we have been together for 3 and a half years! I don't think that I want to date him for 5 years before we get married! That is just crazy. I don't know. Maybe I am just being sentimental because he isn't here. I just wish that I knew what he was thinking sometimes about getting married... he is so bad at giving me a real answer because so much of our future is still unstable with college, living situations, job stuff, etc. Ah, I wish that I could go back to kindergarden, things were so much easier.
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Today I woke up late for work (again) and made it here only like 8 minutes late. So tonight I am going to do the laundry that I have been telling my mom I will do, then take a nap, and then go out and party somewhere. I am just in the mood to go have fun.