Hey.

[emilystarr1]

I am expecting tonight to be a difficult one.

Anyone wanting to post anything distract-y or fun or cheer-uppy - well, I'd be very indebted.

Or if you want to throw anything at any of my characters (or potential characters :p) for RP purposes or ask from that 100 Most Important Things To Know About Your Character thing ... Bella, Ginny, Anne,

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[varymydays]

I do have to ask Roger something though from that list.

If you could choose, how would you want to die?

bwahaha

[soiwillsing]

You are SUCH a horrible angstwhore!! XD

If I could choose?

It would be on my own terms. Like April.

If it ever seems to be getting close ... I'd go to the roof and fly.

Seems like as good a way to go as any.

[withoutascript0]

Roger...

[soiwillsing]

I can't believe how just one word from you can make me go absolutely fucking psychotic -

It wouldn't be the worst thing, Mark.

[withoutascript0]

I don't want to lose you, Roger.

Sooner does not make it somehow better.

[soiwillsing]

*sighs*

You gonna rattle the AZT bottle at me now? Wasn't about the sooner, Mark. It's about the easier. And I'm not saying I'm going to go out and do it tomorrow, for fuck's sake, I'm just saying, if I had a choice ...

And doesn't everybody deserve that? Even me?

[varymydays]

*FLAILS* That is such a perfect answer for him. Just. Yes. :|

I can't say that I blame you for making it a choice, Roger, instead of letting your body decay.

But I think Mark would be sad.

[soiwillsing]

Thanks. ^^

It's not even the body decay - hell, that fucking goes on every minute of every day. For everyone. It's ... it's the knowing, maybe. The wait.

Mark might be sad. But it would be better. And it would be better for him.

[varymydays]

But isn't that what everyone has to do in the long run? We're all headed that way eventually. No one can know when for sure. You could be alive today, and then dead tomorrow of an accident.

I'm not sure he'd agree with that.

[soiwillsing]

I never said I did well with logic. But look at it this way - I've bought about twenty thousand more lottery tickets than most. My chances of winning are greater.

You see what I mean?

And it doesn't matter what Mark says. Mark is an idiot who never knows what's good for him. He would've ditched me long ago if he did.

[calicoway]

Wish i had the strength to do that.

would save a lot of people a lot of trouble

[soiwillsing]

I don't know you, man, and don't know if it would save people trouble or if you're fucking fooling yourself. I know I would've been better off if a few choice people had stuck around.

But strength ... I don't think it's got anything to do with it. I think some of us are just lucky enough to be born with the defective gene that makes it a possibility in our heads.

...Don't know what to wish for you, so I'll just wish you luck. With whatever.

[calicoway]

i'm dying anyway. It's just a matter of when. Meanwhile, i've got an evil organization looking to kill or use me as a weapon. People are trying to hide me and get me the drugs i need just to survive, but

seems like a lot of wasted effort for a few more hours.

thanks. you, too.

[soiwillsing]

That ... is just something that no human being is equipped to handle. That is fucked up, man.

Seems that if people are putting in all this effort it's for a reason, whether you like it or not. Not that I don't feel you on that. What drugs do you need?

[calicoway]

yeah, so i've found.

can't figure why. cept they don't want to fail me. they think it's important to give me as much time as possible, which i appreciate. i don't want to die, but i

don't want anyone else gettin hurt, yeah? not cause of me. not anymore.

i'm HIV+ so there's a wide array...

[soiwillsing]

[OOC: You know what I love? Roger did not even question this. Just, yep, guy's getting hunted by an evil organization. Happens every day. XD I think now he figures, if the guy IS crazy, just go along with it. :p]

... Me, too. I've got AZT, if you need it.

At least you appreciate it. That seems ... good of you.