pissing people off
i've figured out something about myself in the last few days. i've been told by people that i'm no longer a bitch, but i've realized that i like to make people think about me! and in doing so its pissing them off!
for example... a few weeks ago hadley posted something on his xanga site about how much happier he is in life, he's clean, falling in love.. that type of shit. i posted a comment... and my intentions were genuine.. i just wanted him to know that i think about him and that i'm very impressed by the fact that he's come to all these conclusions in life. well what do you expect, 2 days later my post was gone. i was slightly offended that he took it down.. but im hoping that he really doesnt hate me as much as he said he did back in september. more than likely his feelings have calmed down but he talked so much trash about me to his friends that he doesnt feel like he can accept me back into his life without them giving him grief.
i think that if i keep this up... just giving him these little reminders that i still think about him... and that i obviously still care.. so maybe one day he can find it in his heart to talk to me. i think he finally realized how much he meant to me, and it scared him because he thought i was in love with him. the reality couldn't be more opposite.. i simply appreciated him for what he did for me.
i just wish he would unblock me... i miss going online and seeing his screenname... i miss being able to call him when i had a bad day and i needed a laugh.. i need that intimate conversation we used to have at night... i miss his laugh.. i miss having him as a part of my life
for example... a few weeks ago hadley posted something on his xanga site about how much happier he is in life, he's clean, falling in love.. that type of shit. i posted a comment... and my intentions were genuine.. i just wanted him to know that i think about him and that i'm very impressed by the fact that he's come to all these conclusions in life. well what do you expect, 2 days later my post was gone. i was slightly offended that he took it down.. but im hoping that he really doesnt hate me as much as he said he did back in september. more than likely his feelings have calmed down but he talked so much trash about me to his friends that he doesnt feel like he can accept me back into his life without them giving him grief.
i think that if i keep this up... just giving him these little reminders that i still think about him... and that i obviously still care.. so maybe one day he can find it in his heart to talk to me. i think he finally realized how much he meant to me, and it scared him because he thought i was in love with him. the reality couldn't be more opposite.. i simply appreciated him for what he did for me.
i just wish he would unblock me... i miss going online and seeing his screenname... i miss being able to call him when i had a bad day and i needed a laugh.. i need that intimate conversation we used to have at night... i miss his laugh.. i miss having him as a part of my life