first day back
so its my first day back in philly.. and im already lonely. i'm trying really hard not to complain about things, but if i just say them all now i dont have to keep going back to them. my roommate is weird. she hasnt spoken one word to me since she got here, she reorganised my empty closet while i was in seaside last night, spent half an hour in the bathroom when she doesnt even wash her hair and i was gonna be late for class and she KNEW i had class.. all she seems to eat are chicken wings and slim-fast
i dont have the energy to unpack cause that will just make it real that im gonna be away from the one thing that makes me happy for 6 whole weeks... and then he leaves for school himself. i've never cared about anyone the way i do for him. maybe thats because he's the first person who cares back? we havent even been apart longer than we normally are... i saw him for lunch yesterday and then met everybody down in seaside last night! maybe its the distance thing... the fact that i cant just hop into my car and drive over to the lumberyard to bring him something to drink... well maybe i still can... but it would take an hour and a half just to get there since im NO LONGER speeding since i got a warning last night for going 93 in a 65!
but maybe this slight separation is good for us... help us to realize what we want this relationship to be... its confusing when he tells me that he misses me and says he'll be miserable without me, but then talks about these other girls.
sometimes im scared that i'm just a replacement for HER and that once he's finally over her he wont need me any more..
but maybe im just paranoid
i dont have the energy to unpack cause that will just make it real that im gonna be away from the one thing that makes me happy for 6 whole weeks... and then he leaves for school himself. i've never cared about anyone the way i do for him. maybe thats because he's the first person who cares back? we havent even been apart longer than we normally are... i saw him for lunch yesterday and then met everybody down in seaside last night! maybe its the distance thing... the fact that i cant just hop into my car and drive over to the lumberyard to bring him something to drink... well maybe i still can... but it would take an hour and a half just to get there since im NO LONGER speeding since i got a warning last night for going 93 in a 65!
but maybe this slight separation is good for us... help us to realize what we want this relationship to be... its confusing when he tells me that he misses me and says he'll be miserable without me, but then talks about these other girls.
sometimes im scared that i'm just a replacement for HER and that once he's finally over her he wont need me any more..
but maybe im just paranoid