so full of turkey
so, Thanksgiving has come and gone. it's always fun hanging out with my family. as dysfuctional as we are, i think that there is a special little sparkle that comes with being so crazy. so i love us.
last night was Asia's bachelorette party! i can't believe she's getting married... she seems so young. the secrets of the night will remain in my brain and those of the gals who attended, but i can say that it was a pimpin' good time. we went to Denny's for brunch this morning where Maggie the poor overworked middle aged waitress served us with a mediocre grin. we tipped her nicely. i hope it made her smile.
i want to try so hard to never write about my ex in these journals. i don't want him to be a part of my life at all. i never want to see him, hear about him, or have any type of contact with him again. i am so frustrated! i was doing so well, then one little email makes me all depressed again. the freakin holidays just make it so difficult... you start thinking about the good warm memories of last year... and before you know it are in a self imposed "i got dumped" pity party. my tiny brain knows that he will never change, and if he did it wouldn't matter-- seriously, the bridges are burned and damage is done. the heart doesn't believe the logic my brain is trying to pump into it. grrr!!! ok, enough of that, because in a year it won't matter. i am giving myself a full 7 months (till july 1st) to not date and just enjoy being single... so... that's that. i'm done now. i think he's gay anyway.
praise God for friends. time for sleep now.
last night was Asia's bachelorette party! i can't believe she's getting married... she seems so young. the secrets of the night will remain in my brain and those of the gals who attended, but i can say that it was a pimpin' good time. we went to Denny's for brunch this morning where Maggie the poor overworked middle aged waitress served us with a mediocre grin. we tipped her nicely. i hope it made her smile.
i want to try so hard to never write about my ex in these journals. i don't want him to be a part of my life at all. i never want to see him, hear about him, or have any type of contact with him again. i am so frustrated! i was doing so well, then one little email makes me all depressed again. the freakin holidays just make it so difficult... you start thinking about the good warm memories of last year... and before you know it are in a self imposed "i got dumped" pity party. my tiny brain knows that he will never change, and if he did it wouldn't matter-- seriously, the bridges are burned and damage is done. the heart doesn't believe the logic my brain is trying to pump into it. grrr!!! ok, enough of that, because in a year it won't matter. i am giving myself a full 7 months (till july 1st) to not date and just enjoy being single... so... that's that. i'm done now. i think he's gay anyway.
praise God for friends. time for sleep now.