it's too late.

[emily_online]

I've been feeling pretty down since my craptacular weekend. I kind of feel like I can't be here anymore. This town is driving me crazy. I want to run away. I would if I didn't have uni to worry about. I think I want to go to Melbourne for like, a month. Just bum around there, explore the city, be away from here and all the shit that comes with this place. It's not going to happen though. This is my last semester; I can't afford to fuck it up. And if I waited till the end of the semester I couldn't leave because of work. Running off for a few weeks around Christmas would most likely jeopordise my job. Although by then my mum will have started nagging me to get a "real" job, so leaving will become even more appealing.

I'm putting off doing any actual uni work today because I just can't be bothered. Never mind that I have 2 essays and a presentation due before the break. I just want to fast-forward my life till 3 months time when it'll all be over. I won't know what the hell I'm going to do with my life at that point, but maybe everything will seem a little less shitty.

I found out I have to attend a party solo this weekend since Alyce is bailing on me. Some shit about not being able to get time off work. There's going to be lots of people I went to school with and there are very few people from school I actually liked. I can tell already it's going to be a barrel of laughs. Can't wait.



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