A poor display of a tired mind
My God life moves fast. I will be twenty four years old in 2 months and somehow that seems so much older than 23. I've never been obsessed with age, never thought I would be the kind of woman who feared reaching 30 or 40. I thought I'd welcome the aging process and accept it as the gaining of wisdom and life experiences.
I have 7 tests/quizzes next week and this post will likely be as scattered as my brain feels at the moment. I was spoiled back into school, sliding through the first five weeks of my "very expensive review" with classes I've already taken, learning skills I used to teach. I had time to remember how to study and unfortunately time to fall back into old habits of procrastination. I had become so accustomed to the "Hard Rock Cafe" lifestyle and it has been quite an adjustment getting back to a student mentality.
One of my Anatomy lab TA's asked me out this morning. I'm not really sure what it is about me at 7:00 in the morning, elbow deep in a dead body that he finds appealing, but I guess the whole "he's seen me at my worst" certainly applies. I didn't say yes, or no...it takes me off guard every time a guy shows interest in me, always has...and I never know what to say. I need to change my automatic, programmed response from "Oh, I already have plans, maybe another time" to "Sure! Here's my number".
I'm ready to take another trip...I want to go back to Europe. Every 6 months, I get an "itch" to go somewhere. I usually don't act on it, but I'm always very thankful the times that I do. I'm thinking about going to the Netherlands over Spring Break to work at a women's clinic there- very naturalistic practice, I think it would be wonderful to experience. There's a trip to Mexico over Christmas break for MD and ND students- very "rough" trip with sleeping in hammocks and bathing from buckets. It sounds fabulous, but smack in the middle of the only time I can see my family. I haven't seen my little brother in almost a year. He wrote me a letter asking if I was married or had children yet...his way of saying "I know nothing about what you're doing right now...call me!". My mother came out last week to co-sign/"guarantor" my condo (oh, by the way, I bought a condo!), and I found the visit extremely pleasant! Not a feeling I usually have during extensive time spent with my mother, I enjoyed it very much and am hoping it's a new maturity in our relationship. She still cries every time we go our separate ways for an extended period of time- how many mothers still do that with their mid-twenties children- shows how much she cares I guess.
I apologize for the randomness...I just felt like writing (I know I'm just avoiding studying), and the fact that my brain is definitely at low-function right now, the quality of the post is quite undesirable. I guess I just felt the need to update...next time I promise more depth...I really need some sleep.
I have 7 tests/quizzes next week and this post will likely be as scattered as my brain feels at the moment. I was spoiled back into school, sliding through the first five weeks of my "very expensive review" with classes I've already taken, learning skills I used to teach. I had time to remember how to study and unfortunately time to fall back into old habits of procrastination. I had become so accustomed to the "Hard Rock Cafe" lifestyle and it has been quite an adjustment getting back to a student mentality.
One of my Anatomy lab TA's asked me out this morning. I'm not really sure what it is about me at 7:00 in the morning, elbow deep in a dead body that he finds appealing, but I guess the whole "he's seen me at my worst" certainly applies. I didn't say yes, or no...it takes me off guard every time a guy shows interest in me, always has...and I never know what to say. I need to change my automatic, programmed response from "Oh, I already have plans, maybe another time" to "Sure! Here's my number".
I'm ready to take another trip...I want to go back to Europe. Every 6 months, I get an "itch" to go somewhere. I usually don't act on it, but I'm always very thankful the times that I do. I'm thinking about going to the Netherlands over Spring Break to work at a women's clinic there- very naturalistic practice, I think it would be wonderful to experience. There's a trip to Mexico over Christmas break for MD and ND students- very "rough" trip with sleeping in hammocks and bathing from buckets. It sounds fabulous, but smack in the middle of the only time I can see my family. I haven't seen my little brother in almost a year. He wrote me a letter asking if I was married or had children yet...his way of saying "I know nothing about what you're doing right now...call me!". My mother came out last week to co-sign/"guarantor" my condo (oh, by the way, I bought a condo!), and I found the visit extremely pleasant! Not a feeling I usually have during extensive time spent with my mother, I enjoyed it very much and am hoping it's a new maturity in our relationship. She still cries every time we go our separate ways for an extended period of time- how many mothers still do that with their mid-twenties children- shows how much she cares I guess.
I apologize for the randomness...I just felt like writing (I know I'm just avoiding studying), and the fact that my brain is definitely at low-function right now, the quality of the post is quite undesirable. I guess I just felt the need to update...next time I promise more depth...I really need some sleep.