uninvited response from jason a.
anonymous
April 21 2006, 07:05:48 UTC
I found your journal while doing an unrelated search through other journals. I didn't take the time to read many of your posts, but I found that the ones I did read seemed to share a common "help me, I'm needy, I want to die, life sucks, I love my friends, I hate my friends, now I love my friends again" theme. I don't know you but I'm guessing from your recent posts that you suffered some sort of minor injury to your arm/hand/shoulder, and judging by the language in your journal, it will probably heal in a few weeks/months, etc. I see your posts complaining about small inconveniences like tying a sweater and leaving shampoo in your hair. Not that we're anything special or exceptional; nor do we deserve special treatment, but I feel compelled to tell you that my sister was in a boating accident and is parylized from the waist down. It really bothers me when I see how positive she tries to be while others complain about the minor setbacks in their day as if it was making them suicidal or something. Can you imagine or even appreciate what it would be like to have no use of your legs forever? My sister aside, how about being blind, deaf, mentally handicapped, cancer ridden, etc.?? I bet you're not any of these things because 90% of the time, people like those are very upbeat, and trying to enjoy every minute of every day. These people give thanks to all that they have and and the wonderful people they get to spend their time with. It seems that more often than not, it is the healthy people with food, clothing, shelter, jobs, etc. that are constantly complaining about what they don't have. They often whine about getting the short lot in life and look to others to tell them how great they are. I bet you even have friends that buy into this pity you put on yourself and offer hugs and tell you they love you everytime you crap on yourself. I hope that they remain good friends and stay by your side in your town forever; because if they had to all go their seperate ways when they grow up and get married, have careers, children, etc., you're going to have a rough time if you still have pity on yourself and cry because someone didn't pay you a compliment or your clothes don't go on the way you want them to. If you continue to beat yourself down and look to others to lift you back up, what are you going to do when you're all by yourself? Commit suicide? That would teach them not to ignore you, wouldn't it? I wouldn't be surprised if you put little cuts on your arms, legs, torso or performed some other type of self mutilation. Of course, never deep enough to do any permanent damage. Maybe just enough to get attention and questions from your friends and family like "are you ok?" "can I help?" "do you want to talk about it?". Again, I don't know you. I only know what I read and interpret from your written expression. However, I do have a suggestion. I don't expect you to be receptive because you're probably pretty pissed off by now. But here it goes...You should try to be thankful for whatever nice things you do have (friends, health, family, posessions, whatever) instead of fishing for sympathy. Have some self esteem. Tell yourself you're pretty, smart, talented, whatever! I'd bet if your friends are true friends, they would pay you just as much (if not more)attention if you had a positive attitude about life. Maybe you could be a trend setter and even get some of your peers to start being positive like you. Since you seem to like attention and hate to be alone, I'd bet you'll get better results and attract MORE attention if you were a little happier about stuff. Of course, I'm just some nosy college kid that's never met you and doesn't know anything about you. Although, from your posts, I feel I wasn't too far off base with alot of my remarks. I guess the bottom line is that I feel that I need to call people on their unwarranted negative behavior. Of course, you don't have to listen to me. You could instead just delete my post and block anonymous remarks so you don't get any more undesireable feedback to your pity posts. If you do decide to carry on as usual, then look on the bright side. You have the rest of your life to "not like dealing with stuff". Now go have a good cry.
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I only write in it when I'm upset because that's when I need to let off steam.
So should I feel sorry for your sister now?
If my friends don't want to read this they won't. I'm not shoving anything onto them.
You don't know shit about my actual life so as far as I'm concerned you're comment meant nothing to me.
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