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i dont wear clothes, just a bathing suit. on the day to day. i can spend hours reading that book. i found these old videos from a few years ago and after i watched them i felt like that person again. its weird, so self conscious. for good reason. but i honestly havent changed, i now realize. its like some kind of animal, your past, you can groom it and train it to act a certain way, domesticate the fuck out of it, but it will never be human. im never going to be brave.