finding time for life
so, what is new with my life??? a whole lot! well, first of all, i am beyond stressed, with school, work, sorority stuff, and studying for the gre. i am so scared about this semester because i am always busy and i can never catch up. i just wish it could be over with. i am ready to be accepted to france, i am ready to figure stuff out.
on another note, i have done a whole bunch of soul searching. my dad and i had this big conversation coming home from florida, and it has really got me thinking about my faith. i know that i am a christian, and that esseintially if you believe in jesus and god that you are going to a better place, but there are so many different opinions on how to praise him. after a whole bunch of studying, i think i realized i have been praising god wrong all these years, and that scares me. how do i know one faith, or opinion of my faith, is right over others? but, i think i have come to a decision...... i think i am going to become catholic, i know that is a big step and a big difference in my life, but i think that is truly where god is leading me. i am kind of nervous because i know my parents will probally not support my decision, so i need alot of courage and prayers to accomplish that. i just hope that i am going in the right direction.....
on another note, i went to my cousin's wedding this weekend. everyone is friggin getting married. and guess who caught the bride's flowers??? me!!! then i had to have every family member proceed to tell me im gonna be next.... me next?!?!?! yea right, i dont have a boyfriend, nor want one right now. they all had a story of how they each had friends who went over seas and got engaged,(and since i might go to france, they say its gonna happen to me) i hope that doesnt happen to me, i just dont need it yet, but i guess god will let happen what needs to happen. guys just suck sometimes..... this summer i had a fling and it totally ended up really bad. i found out the entire time the guy lied to me and munipilated me and a friend of mine. what is really sad that he proceeded to tell each of us that we were both talking trash about eachother. why do i always put myself in those positions??? then he finally apologizes to me last week, after a couple of months of not talking to him, and he tries to justify the lies and the modes of screwing me over!!!! i was trying to be the good christian and forgive and forget(not meaning im gonna be buddy-buddy, but be nice and civil)and he tries to friggen justify it and pull me back in, no sir!!!! i know i am gullable and let everyone and their mom walk over me, but not a second time, im not that stupid!!!!!!!!
on another note, i want a puppy really badly! i want to find alot of things right now, so im gonna stop blabblin and try to start getting all of my stuff done!
on another note, i have done a whole bunch of soul searching. my dad and i had this big conversation coming home from florida, and it has really got me thinking about my faith. i know that i am a christian, and that esseintially if you believe in jesus and god that you are going to a better place, but there are so many different opinions on how to praise him. after a whole bunch of studying, i think i realized i have been praising god wrong all these years, and that scares me. how do i know one faith, or opinion of my faith, is right over others? but, i think i have come to a decision...... i think i am going to become catholic, i know that is a big step and a big difference in my life, but i think that is truly where god is leading me. i am kind of nervous because i know my parents will probally not support my decision, so i need alot of courage and prayers to accomplish that. i just hope that i am going in the right direction.....
on another note, i went to my cousin's wedding this weekend. everyone is friggin getting married. and guess who caught the bride's flowers??? me!!! then i had to have every family member proceed to tell me im gonna be next.... me next?!?!?! yea right, i dont have a boyfriend, nor want one right now. they all had a story of how they each had friends who went over seas and got engaged,(and since i might go to france, they say its gonna happen to me) i hope that doesnt happen to me, i just dont need it yet, but i guess god will let happen what needs to happen. guys just suck sometimes..... this summer i had a fling and it totally ended up really bad. i found out the entire time the guy lied to me and munipilated me and a friend of mine. what is really sad that he proceeded to tell each of us that we were both talking trash about eachother. why do i always put myself in those positions??? then he finally apologizes to me last week, after a couple of months of not talking to him, and he tries to justify the lies and the modes of screwing me over!!!! i was trying to be the good christian and forgive and forget(not meaning im gonna be buddy-buddy, but be nice and civil)and he tries to friggen justify it and pull me back in, no sir!!!! i know i am gullable and let everyone and their mom walk over me, but not a second time, im not that stupid!!!!!!!!
on another note, i want a puppy really badly! i want to find alot of things right now, so im gonna stop blabblin and try to start getting all of my stuff done!