May 16, 2006 02:18
"Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you’ve told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you’ve followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he’ll say he’s just not the same
And you’ll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life"
He has a plan, and it will all work out. i hurt, i'm disappointed, i care too much sometimes, but i never hate; even if i wish i could once in awhile. it was all just one more sign that it's time to stop hoping and wishing that someday our hearts will collide again. i wish it was all that easy in real life...that's my only wish for now.
in other news...life feels really good right now...even if all of the above made it sound like it's not. this introspecting is amazing...i have really grown and changed a lot in the past few weeks.
i'm addicted to gershwin...sooo amazing. i'm also addicted to dave brubeck and a new brain. and ultimate mancini. quite the jazz/musical theater selection right now.
i'm also addicted to ben homnick playing gershwin. and he did for me last night. mmm...so wonderful. so very very wonderful.
i need to sleep...everything about being awake is just bothering me right now. george isn't even helping. but, i can't, i have to stay up and finish kyle's scrapbook. whatever.