how quickly things can change
I didn't have such a wonderful night. My afternoon was decent, Alyssa came over, we talked, hung out, i put plastic on my windows. Her friend Jake came over, Chris came over. I guess you can call it the typical night. Nothing was going wrong, as usual. But then we decided to go to steak and shake to meet my friends and his friends. Bad idea. Some shit got started, i felt so bad. I didn't know what to say or do, i just held his hand. It got rediculous, so we left. i was pretty heated, mostly because he was just so upset. Chris is one of the nicest, sweetest, most caring person you can ever hope to meet and for him to get put down like that, GOD!!! It just really pissed me off.
So when we made it back to my apartment, he gave me a hug and apoligized. he had nothing to be sorry for. i didn't want an apoligy. i couldn't say anything, i was crying on his shoulder. then when he told me that he was going to figure this out and when he gave me a kiss on my forehead and left, that killed me. i don't know why, but i just started crying and didn't stop for a good hour. I couldn't sleep, i couldn't not think about him. i just stared at the ceiling for a good while, ended up falling asleep around 4, got up at 6...had a couple cups of coffee and here i am now.
Of all the problems i thought we were going to go through, i didn't think that friends would be one of them. i thought they liked me, i thought they were happy for chris. i mean fuck'n A, we been dating for a little over a week and then this happens. they say it's over, but we'll see. i don't want to sacrifice my friends and i don't want him to sacrifice his, but a sacrifice is going to have to made...
So when we made it back to my apartment, he gave me a hug and apoligized. he had nothing to be sorry for. i didn't want an apoligy. i couldn't say anything, i was crying on his shoulder. then when he told me that he was going to figure this out and when he gave me a kiss on my forehead and left, that killed me. i don't know why, but i just started crying and didn't stop for a good hour. I couldn't sleep, i couldn't not think about him. i just stared at the ceiling for a good while, ended up falling asleep around 4, got up at 6...had a couple cups of coffee and here i am now.
Of all the problems i thought we were going to go through, i didn't think that friends would be one of them. i thought they liked me, i thought they were happy for chris. i mean fuck'n A, we been dating for a little over a week and then this happens. they say it's over, but we'll see. i don't want to sacrifice my friends and i don't want him to sacrifice his, but a sacrifice is going to have to made...