Supersonic Overdrive
Dispite all that is going on...I think Im healing slowly.
I cleaned my room and my apartment, and Ive kept it clean. Ive been cleaning my dishes and keeping up with myself. I havent done laundry yet but that will get done on saturday when I ll be alone for the day. Everyone is shooting this weekend except me so I ll be home doing laundry. I may invite someone over, I dont know yet.
Tomorrow night Im going to LA to go clubbing.
Friday Im attending a party at elieens house.
Saturday Im doing chores and hopefully working.
Sunday I think Ill be doing photoshop homework and working (hopefully).
So...
Im keeping busy.
Im trying anyway. I want to heal, I do. And I am, I can feel it. I have my moments, of course. I dont expect those to stop for a while. But for the most part, I feel...ok. Still hurt, but that will go away in time. I want to feel confident and like myself again. I will, I just have to build myself up again.
Right now, Im confident sometimes but a lot of times I feel like a little girl just going through puberty...confused and crazy.
I know for sure that I am NOT ready to hook up with any girl---boys are no more, ever---I will not be ready for that for a long while.
Good news...
Im getting a puppy. My tia in LA has a pug dog that gave birth to puppies. She saved one for me. ^^ Im excited. I have to wait 6 to 8 weeks for him to be weened but then hes mine!~ Then I can give him all my love and attention, Im tellin you now, that little dog is going to be SPOILED!
I need to go to sleep. I have class tomorrow with my hot teacher, Dr. Nancy Finn...she is incredible...now she I would have an exception for to hook up with. ;0)
Night. Night.