"So much beauty in life, shining on the outside, empty on the inside"
"promise me that one day
when i'm past this
so far past this that i can look to eternity in any direction
and not see even a trace of it
that you'll look at me and say
that you knew all along
what it'd take to make it dissapear
and what it took to make me hold on
and that u didnt erase it for the sole reason
that on that very day
when i'm that far past it
that you would have the greatest happiness you could ever experience
in telling me
that because of it all
i am probably the most beautiful thing
inside
and out
that you have ever
or ever will
encounter
in your lifetime
and lifetimes after that
because right now
i sure as hell dont see the point"
waiting for him to appear
in the living room
just sitting there waiting
to pull me into his lap
and kiss me on the forehead
and tell me everything'll be alright
and put me back to bed
and tell me he loves me
and that that will never change
i must've tricked myself into thinking
that i seemed older than i am
i posess this great talent
in convincing myself of things that start out as wishes
that somehow
if i think hard enough they'll come true
and when they dont
and i'm left in awe of what happened
where i went wrong
i dont know where to go from there
"you can take it all away, i dont need it, underneath i'll still be the same"
i'm so confused about it
i really am left in a state of mind that doesnt seem to stop spinning
and i'm not sure if it's the blurry visions that surround me
the incessant spinning
or this insufferable heartache that is making me sick
and then i can see you standing there, with this white light about you that i cant seem to explain
how you never seem to fade away when i'm surrounded by this consuming darkness
but it seems that.....for once in a long time
your light is fading
but not because you're turning away
because you are getting what u most deserve
and i care so much i wouldnt dare take that away
God himself knows how much i love you all
"deep inside the corner of my mind i'm attatched to you, i'm weak, it's true"
tell me what u want from me now, because i dont know what it is
what now? where do i go from here? say something......anything....
when i'm past this
so far past this that i can look to eternity in any direction
and not see even a trace of it
that you'll look at me and say
that you knew all along
what it'd take to make it dissapear
and what it took to make me hold on
and that u didnt erase it for the sole reason
that on that very day
when i'm that far past it
that you would have the greatest happiness you could ever experience
in telling me
that because of it all
i am probably the most beautiful thing
inside
and out
that you have ever
or ever will
encounter
in your lifetime
and lifetimes after that
because right now
i sure as hell dont see the point"
waiting for him to appear
in the living room
just sitting there waiting
to pull me into his lap
and kiss me on the forehead
and tell me everything'll be alright
and put me back to bed
and tell me he loves me
and that that will never change
i must've tricked myself into thinking
that i seemed older than i am
i posess this great talent
in convincing myself of things that start out as wishes
that somehow
if i think hard enough they'll come true
and when they dont
and i'm left in awe of what happened
where i went wrong
i dont know where to go from there
"you can take it all away, i dont need it, underneath i'll still be the same"
i'm so confused about it
i really am left in a state of mind that doesnt seem to stop spinning
and i'm not sure if it's the blurry visions that surround me
the incessant spinning
or this insufferable heartache that is making me sick
and then i can see you standing there, with this white light about you that i cant seem to explain
how you never seem to fade away when i'm surrounded by this consuming darkness
but it seems that.....for once in a long time
your light is fading
but not because you're turning away
because you are getting what u most deserve
and i care so much i wouldnt dare take that away
God himself knows how much i love you all
"deep inside the corner of my mind i'm attatched to you, i'm weak, it's true"
tell me what u want from me now, because i dont know what it is
what now? where do i go from here? say something......anything....