Lost....
My thoughts have me feeling melancholy. I find the urge to purge and cry my eyes out for what reason I have none...I am looking in from the outside and all looks cloudy. What must I do to see the clear blue sky again with the sun on the horizon. I am slowly withdrawing into myself letting the darkness engulf me with its warmth, but this is not where I want to be. I want to runway from my inhibitions and hold my head up as if nothing and no one matters. But life is not so. Today has been a day to test my strength and willpower. I want to yell at myself " snap out of it" but I can not. I feel as moving in slow motion watching everything else go by me wanting to touch it but it being just out of reach. All around me I have all these writing and quotes to inspire me but to no avail I am still on the island of lost souls. I am feeling it all as if touch is my only sensory. I catch myself drifting into my safe haven which is my mind and blocking all out. Must remember that I must leave the door open or the darkness will engulf me and then I will drown. This is by no means depression but a form of procrastination. Just slowing me down from what needs to be done. '
Aww shucks...
Aww shucks...