my world
I miss u, ya know. I need to be around u so i can remember u. This uneasy friendship we share with one another is like air to me. I need it and i need u. I can finally touch u again, hug u, kiss u. thats more than i could ever ask for. u know more about me than anyone in the world, and i know how u used to be like the back of my hand. ur different now, its hard to understand that. i dont like watching u destroy urself, but it isnt my job to stop u anymore. i still love u, the whole world knows that. isnt it obvious? i cant stop thinking about what we once were. we were so in love. we couldnt even look at eachother without smiling. i miss that. i dont like how apart we have grown. but i will savor every minute of ur kindness. every ounce of my energy has poured into all this wanting, praying, and hoping. i wish we wouldnt slip into the akward silence of our true hatred for one another. let go of ur fears. its ok, i promise. life moves on and eventually i will too. but for now, i will remain in my world of the past.