I knew this would happen...
Sitting here on the first morning of my 3 weeks of vacation and feeling bored and annoyed already. I always do this...whenever I'm working or at school all I want more than anything is some vacation...but as soon as I get some I dont like it.
Growing up as an only child I got used to finding things to amuse myself with and spending a fair amount of time on my own...and generally I think I enjoyed the time spent alone....but ever since moving away to university and living with at least 4 other other people...or in first year about 50 people...i've never really felt comfortable with having alone time. I have this feeling like I need to be doing something or have plans all the time. I think another issue with this comes from being ass fucked by school for the past 4.5 years....you just get used to constantly having work to do...and even when you arent doing work the guilt in the back of your mind nagging at you..telling you that you have a bunch of assignments/readings etc to do...so being in a position where you are work and guilt free can feel very foreign...I'm going to have to try and find some way of dealing with this and force myself into enjoying this break because before I know it I will be back for another brutal semester of school followed by 4 months of placement..at the end of which I will have to go out and get a real job (nooooooooooooooooooo) haha.
Merry Christmas
Growing up as an only child I got used to finding things to amuse myself with and spending a fair amount of time on my own...and generally I think I enjoyed the time spent alone....but ever since moving away to university and living with at least 4 other other people...or in first year about 50 people...i've never really felt comfortable with having alone time. I have this feeling like I need to be doing something or have plans all the time. I think another issue with this comes from being ass fucked by school for the past 4.5 years....you just get used to constantly having work to do...and even when you arent doing work the guilt in the back of your mind nagging at you..telling you that you have a bunch of assignments/readings etc to do...so being in a position where you are work and guilt free can feel very foreign...I'm going to have to try and find some way of dealing with this and force myself into enjoying this break because before I know it I will be back for another brutal semester of school followed by 4 months of placement..at the end of which I will have to go out and get a real job (nooooooooooooooooooo) haha.
Merry Christmas