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so.... no go on the pregnancy thing. i took a test last night. i knew i wouldn't be. just to be on the safe side when i go for routine blood tests this week I'm going to have my dr. add a blood pregnancy test in w the 20 others they will draw. the store bought are not always that reliable w and adding to the mix all the meds I take that could throw it off also. even know though i knew i wasn't, i was still a little bummed out.. and i came to terms a LONG time ago that having kids just isn't a possibility for me but every since my transplant for some reason it seems like it's been an issue again. like maybe in the future a possibility somehow for J and I to have kids. maybe thru adoption or some other way. i don't know. i do know tho.... just right now is NO way the right time for us!! i'm sitll very much adjusting and getting used to all the new changes w. the transplant and at the moment am not doing all that great w. that. plus before we we have to find out if j is a carrier of the cf gene. as i said before that is the only way i could ever go thru w. an abortion, i think even knowing it would put me in rejection wouldn't stop me. anyway.. enough boring rondo bs.
Walter, my puppy, i got for Christmas was hit by a truck monday afternoon. i put him and donnie both outside on their collars about 20 till 30. and when i came back in i got sick to my stomach. well i figured J would be home soon and i could just a lay down in my bed and he would let them in. well he came home banging on my bedroom window and about 5.2 before he had gotten home someone from his work had hit him. i'm confused on the details of how it happened. the dude honked at Walter which caused him to turn and run back towards him and then he ended up hitting him anyway??? not rlly sure. the guy felt terrible and was nearly crying j said. anywho. we rushed him to our vet. and they kept him and got him comfortable while they figured out what all was wrong w. him. thankfully all it's ended up being is a broken back leg. we went yesterday to speak w. the vet. we were given two choices. send him to a surgeon in anderson who would put like a plate and some other things on him and it would cost us anywhere from $2000 to $5500, and that's just the surgery. that did not include the stay at the place or the care. nor the care at our regular vet since monday. our vet isn't capable of doing that big of a surgery but he feels confident the surgery he can perform is just as good and the only complication rlly is that Walter will be left w. a slight limp and he would be w. the other surgery as well. My vets surgery is going to cost me about $500. Huge difference. That and the fact my vet is willing to work on a payment plan. The surgeon wants the entire cost of everything up front paid in full. the vet said if you have the money of course the surgeon is the way to go, but if you don't... i swear i will take care of this puppy like he was my own and to the best of my ability. I trust him and I think Walter is young enough and a feisty enough puppy he will be just fine. Plus he needs some sort of quirk to fit in better w. this family! hahaha! I guess a lot of people think I'm crazy for having surgery or paying that much money for a dog. But he's part of my family and when I got him I took a responsibility for him. What am I supposed to do?? Have him put down for a broken leg?? Or just let him run around in pain w. a useless broken leg?? What if their kid broke it's arm? They wouldn't do everything to take care of that and make sure it was ok?? And YES I just compared my dog to a child! Get over it!
j talked to pat last night and the market opens the third week in april. i have to go over there one night this week to calmly and rationally, i put that cause originally i put argue and i'm trying to be more positive! anyway!! i need to speak w. him about who we are hiring and all that stuff. plus i haven't had a chance to speak w. him about this whole getting married thing. and it definitely needs discussed!!
~ugh~ i just found out that my mother is not having any sort of graduation party or open house for my brother. i'm SO pissed. i'm going to talk to my aunts and see if they will help me put something together. i would do it on my own but i just don't have the money. she pisses me off to no end! just cause he didn't graduate w. perfect a's and honors doesn't mean he still doesn't deserve to be celebrated!! just another reason to add to long long long list of what she's a shitty mother. of course long ago, i realized she's not my mother so... the closest i have to a mother is my mother in law, nancy, she's a bit annoying sometimes but i know she loves me very very much. a few weeks ago we went over there and j rlly upset me and i was trying my hardest to not start crying but like right before we walked in he said something and i just couldn't help it i started crying and nancy came over and asked me what was wrong and just gave me this big hug and sat me down and just kept hugging me. like a mom does. and i had missed that so much. and it was sooo appreciated it. i think her daughters just have no clue at all. and i hate that they take so much advantage of her. yes she can be annoying and overbearing but she means well and she loves her children more then her own life itself. and i'm v. lucky she considers me her child and not just jason's wife. and i rlly felt that for the first time. it's amazing what a simple hug can do you know?
ok. i gotta stop rambling and get on my treadmille.if i can stay awake away... falling asleep on that thing... i doubt would be fun!!
Walter, my puppy, i got for Christmas was hit by a truck monday afternoon. i put him and donnie both outside on their collars about 20 till 30. and when i came back in i got sick to my stomach. well i figured J would be home soon and i could just a lay down in my bed and he would let them in. well he came home banging on my bedroom window and about 5.2 before he had gotten home someone from his work had hit him. i'm confused on the details of how it happened. the dude honked at Walter which caused him to turn and run back towards him and then he ended up hitting him anyway??? not rlly sure. the guy felt terrible and was nearly crying j said. anywho. we rushed him to our vet. and they kept him and got him comfortable while they figured out what all was wrong w. him. thankfully all it's ended up being is a broken back leg. we went yesterday to speak w. the vet. we were given two choices. send him to a surgeon in anderson who would put like a plate and some other things on him and it would cost us anywhere from $2000 to $5500, and that's just the surgery. that did not include the stay at the place or the care. nor the care at our regular vet since monday. our vet isn't capable of doing that big of a surgery but he feels confident the surgery he can perform is just as good and the only complication rlly is that Walter will be left w. a slight limp and he would be w. the other surgery as well. My vets surgery is going to cost me about $500. Huge difference. That and the fact my vet is willing to work on a payment plan. The surgeon wants the entire cost of everything up front paid in full. the vet said if you have the money of course the surgeon is the way to go, but if you don't... i swear i will take care of this puppy like he was my own and to the best of my ability. I trust him and I think Walter is young enough and a feisty enough puppy he will be just fine. Plus he needs some sort of quirk to fit in better w. this family! hahaha! I guess a lot of people think I'm crazy for having surgery or paying that much money for a dog. But he's part of my family and when I got him I took a responsibility for him. What am I supposed to do?? Have him put down for a broken leg?? Or just let him run around in pain w. a useless broken leg?? What if their kid broke it's arm? They wouldn't do everything to take care of that and make sure it was ok?? And YES I just compared my dog to a child! Get over it!
j talked to pat last night and the market opens the third week in april. i have to go over there one night this week to calmly and rationally, i put that cause originally i put argue and i'm trying to be more positive! anyway!! i need to speak w. him about who we are hiring and all that stuff. plus i haven't had a chance to speak w. him about this whole getting married thing. and it definitely needs discussed!!
~ugh~ i just found out that my mother is not having any sort of graduation party or open house for my brother. i'm SO pissed. i'm going to talk to my aunts and see if they will help me put something together. i would do it on my own but i just don't have the money. she pisses me off to no end! just cause he didn't graduate w. perfect a's and honors doesn't mean he still doesn't deserve to be celebrated!! just another reason to add to long long long list of what she's a shitty mother. of course long ago, i realized she's not my mother so... the closest i have to a mother is my mother in law, nancy, she's a bit annoying sometimes but i know she loves me very very much. a few weeks ago we went over there and j rlly upset me and i was trying my hardest to not start crying but like right before we walked in he said something and i just couldn't help it i started crying and nancy came over and asked me what was wrong and just gave me this big hug and sat me down and just kept hugging me. like a mom does. and i had missed that so much. and it was sooo appreciated it. i think her daughters just have no clue at all. and i hate that they take so much advantage of her. yes she can be annoying and overbearing but she means well and she loves her children more then her own life itself. and i'm v. lucky she considers me her child and not just jason's wife. and i rlly felt that for the first time. it's amazing what a simple hug can do you know?
ok. i gotta stop rambling and get on my treadmille.if i can stay awake away... falling asleep on that thing... i doubt would be fun!!