I don't know what to feel...not tired...not hungry...not upset.

[em151310]

I can't describe what's going through my head because in some ways it just feel empty...completely hallow. Even though I just got off the phone with Anthony, I want to talk to someone. Why? I really don't know myself. I could name a few people I wouldn't mind calling but it's really too late to call them now. Hey, I probably could call Anthony

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[reminded_of_you]

Wow i just found this... i was expecting to find somthing on xanga and figured id check here just incase. To be honest, this post kida made me sad. So many things running thought my head all at once. I know these feelings you are talking about. It seems like only yesterday (excuse the overused phrase) that it finially dawned on me that my life would be changing dramatically. Some people i will never see again and others it will be years before our paths meet again. It's funny that you say "Even though I just got off the phone with Anthony, I want to talk to someone." because i feel the same about you and sometimes i actually do call someone else. Anyone else. Just to talk about you. Although we may have been talking for and hour or more its so hard to let go. I have found myself calling friends just to tell them how much i love you and how happy i am with you. I find it helps. If i'm not there with you i am thinking about you. I don't want you to think that you are holding me back with making new freinds. I'm doing alright I really am. I may not have met as many people but thats ok. I become closer with someone new everyday, weather it be some one new or a high school friend. I don't expect anything from you. I do tell you a lot that I love you but it is because I do. I know you love me, and I don't expect you to tell me everytime. I am new to this love thing. You are so amazing Emily. I have never loved anyone as much as I love you. There is more i could say but im not sure if it would aburpt and, like you i don't yet know how to put these feeling to words.