...you slept safe and close to the window...

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eh..I dunno...I just thought i'd do my little update since im hardly ever home anymore...=( everythings just been going sooo downhill lately..i just..dont know...i mean it doesnt seem like Anthony even cares anymore..i cant really blame him for not cuz he does live in valencia..but i dont know...i havent really talked to him about anything..the last time i talked to him i got all mad cuz he was being mean..whatever ya kno? and all this shit with my dad and everything..it just...kills me..=( i hate him...i really do..and even if this all blows over...i will still hate him just as much if not more than i do now..i brought home my little kitten from Cynthias house..his name is Finch..(good band..and its anthonys fave band soo..) lol...yeah...its kinda...interesting...hes sleeping on my bed right now...hes the only one i have here..my little kitten haha..<3..i dunno what im gonna do anymore...i just..i dunno..i feel SO bad being at cynthias house all the time..its like..im taking advantage of her but im not...i dunno..i know she has her own family situation...i try not to eat at her house..even if it means that i starve..i wouldnt care..i'd rather starve then..make her family situation worse..=( hmmm ..my life is "all downhill from here" lol..as new found glory would put it bluntly..:sigh: i dunno...theres not much left for me in this evil world...not much at all...okay well writing in this is making me depressed...so..yeah...i think im gonna go..ohhh..my moms outta town for 3 days..she leaves tomorrow..wish me luck.. =( much luv everyone..

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Nicole