L.i.f.e.s.u.c.k.s
well alot of shit has been going on lately...
I'd rather not get into it too much because theres soo much to this pointless story that I wouldnt know where to begin..well...Im pretty much moving to Cynthias house..Ive been having REALLY bad family problems again..and reguardless of whether or not i got kicked out...I cant stay here..I cant stand my (ex) dad..I disowned him..I really did...I cant stand him..I really just hope he goes away and never comes back. I cant stand the shit he puts me through and the way he treats me...I really just wanna take some random car and drive it off of a cliff..I want to die..but..i dunno..Cynthia and a select few other people are the reason I havent done anything stupid..=( I dont know whats gonna go down..But Im doing my laundery then Im outta here for a while..=( I dont know what else there is to do...soo thats why I havent been online..or Why I havent talked to anyone...cuz I just..cant...Ive been crying NON stop for like..3 days now..My eyes are red as hell..and I look pretty much dead..the only thing i eat is like..a little subway sandwich when i go out to eat with my Mom. I seriously look like..shit..=( the only people Ive really talked to is..Cynthia,Christopher,Chris and Anthony..Everytime someone calls I usually decline it..cuz I cant handle being on the phone for that long anymore..I break down...=( its the only thing i can do..i have no strength to pull myself together..none...=( No self motivation..I dunno how much more of this I can handle..ahck...soo depressing..
On the lighter note..I start school soon..so..that should be interesting...ill just take it one day at a time until i start school..then i'll be too busy too deal w/ any bull shit...
im sorry for everything ive ever done to anyone..i never meant to hurt anyone..=( and if i have..im truely sorry..
well I think im gonna do..i have some more laundery to do...so i can get outta here..I should be back ina couple weeks to do laundery and some more shit..so...yeah..leave comments..or call..i probably wont answer but leave a message..<3
-Nicole
I'd rather not get into it too much because theres soo much to this pointless story that I wouldnt know where to begin..well...Im pretty much moving to Cynthias house..Ive been having REALLY bad family problems again..and reguardless of whether or not i got kicked out...I cant stay here..I cant stand my (ex) dad..I disowned him..I really did...I cant stand him..I really just hope he goes away and never comes back. I cant stand the shit he puts me through and the way he treats me...I really just wanna take some random car and drive it off of a cliff..I want to die..but..i dunno..Cynthia and a select few other people are the reason I havent done anything stupid..=( I dont know whats gonna go down..But Im doing my laundery then Im outta here for a while..=( I dont know what else there is to do...soo thats why I havent been online..or Why I havent talked to anyone...cuz I just..cant...Ive been crying NON stop for like..3 days now..My eyes are red as hell..and I look pretty much dead..the only thing i eat is like..a little subway sandwich when i go out to eat with my Mom. I seriously look like..shit..=( the only people Ive really talked to is..Cynthia,Christopher,Chris and Anthony..Everytime someone calls I usually decline it..cuz I cant handle being on the phone for that long anymore..I break down...=( its the only thing i can do..i have no strength to pull myself together..none...=( No self motivation..I dunno how much more of this I can handle..ahck...soo depressing..
On the lighter note..I start school soon..so..that should be interesting...ill just take it one day at a time until i start school..then i'll be too busy too deal w/ any bull shit...
im sorry for everything ive ever done to anyone..i never meant to hurt anyone..=( and if i have..im truely sorry..
well I think im gonna do..i have some more laundery to do...so i can get outta here..I should be back ina couple weeks to do laundery and some more shit..so...yeah..leave comments..or call..i probably wont answer but leave a message..<3
-Nicole