...i miss you i miss you so...
well.. not much has been going on just been hanging out with Cindy and Chris..and Jeff!! cuz hes soo cool lol..We went to the mall and hung out alittle there and saw some people from way back lmao...yeah and after we went to the mall..we went to Anthonys for alittle while..and hung out with him...it was okay i guess..he was there with his parents and stuff cleaning up that Frat house of his..so they can sell it or whatever the hell they wanna do with it..god knows..lol..its weird..his stepdad was being all nice to all of us...it was odd..lol..hes usually like an asshole..but he was kinda nice..his mom was...i dunno i didnt really pay much attention to her.we only stayed there for like an hour so it was nothing big..we came back to my house and chilled for alil while..and i kinda got into a fight with my brother and it got outta hand cuz hes an asshole and he doesnt know when to stop provoking me to like strangle him and kick him until he bleeds.. and then i got all..ina weird mood..and i locked myself in my moms room..and turned on some good ol Taking Back Sunday..and just thought...i thought about everything..school..family..friends..anthony..everything..my dads coming back tomorrow..and i know its gonna go back to the same shit..:( my mom was being all weird tonight..she was like "i have a bad feeling about your dads flight" trying to scare me and shit..i was like whatever..as much as i hate my dad i mean i dont want him to die or anything..i just thought him staying a couple more weeks woulda been nice..but whatever..nothings gonna change..im just gonna be out alot..not home!! as oppose to now..when hes gone and im home all the time..just for the face that i dont like leaving my mom here all by herself cuz my brother usually goes out and hangs out with his little girlfriend and shit..so..yeah but oh well..the party stops..tomorrow @ 8AM..::sigh:: whatever tho..soo in my time alone in my moms room...i thought and realized alot of things...i realized that I have the best group of friends in the world..I mean...Cynthia...wow..that girl has been thru thick, thin and everything in between..before and after..shes my everything..seriously..without that girl i wouldnt still be here..i love her with all my heart..shes the best...i can honestly say shes my Angel...shes guided me thru all the right and wrong paths...shes always been by my side..thru everything..and i love her...and Christopher...hes the coolest gay guy ever..i can just talk to him about everything..laying outside looking at the stars the other night was soo chill...we talked about everything..and laughed and played around.it was just so chill..i know he wont ever turn his back on me and i know hes always gonna be there..:) i love him!! hes the best! and Jeff...that guy..wow..where do i start? with being there for me that day i was PISS ass drunk and blacked out..yeah i prolly should start there...from that moment i knew Jeff was gonna be an amazing friend..and as always..I was right..that guy has been there to help me thru some tough times..some insecurity issues i have...hes always there for me to talk to and that guy has cheered me up on more than one occasion..and of course he introduced me to my boyfriend Anthony..that guys amazing..always knows the right things to say to make me smile..just holding me in his arms..makes me the happiest person ever...and i know hes gone to Valencia..but i think if me and him can make it thru this..we can make it thru anything..and I like him soo much and Im willing to make all sorts of sacrafices for him...if hes willing to make it work..so am I..i know the distance is gonna be hard..but i mean i see him as much as i can..and i know this...i cherish the times i do spend with him..the times that i can..:) annddd I mean I cant forget my like..BESTFRIEND from Boston..Jen!! that girl..wow its been like 5 years..and although i dont KNOW her..I know her in another sense..a sense that like..she knows me too..its awesome..i can tell her anything and know that she'll be completly honest with me and give me advice and tell me everythings gonna be okay..shes helped me with sooo much and i really dunno what kinda person i'd be without jen!! shes amazing..and i really wish only the best for her..:) shes just like..my bestfriend on the EaSt CoAsT! hehe i luv ya! Oh Oh!1 I almost forgot Chris!! lmao..nahh i just wanted to save you for last! lol your amazing and I know i've only known you this short amount of time but in this short amount of time you've changed a part of me that i never thought anyone could ever change..you accepted me for who i was and didnt take me for granted and i opened up to you with all my fears and everything..your like..my bestfriend and i care about you alot..dont ever forget that!!yeah so this is prolly the entery where i spill out all my guts! lol..this is gonna be a long entery oh well though..no one reads this shit..so yeah thats pretty much it for this entery..i just hope that everything works out for the better...I get to see Anthony later on today beings its 12:37 and it's taken me like soo long to write this because i keep stopping to think and shit lol..so..yeah and Monday Im going to Six Flags! So i'll have a plenty more to write soon!! Much Luv everyone...and thanks for everything..all of you who read this!! Leave comments or sumthing!!! hehee..XoXo