uncertain
currently in the middle of cleaning my room and sneaking a break.
staying at home for the hols is well and fine but there's such a tendency to slack the day away. It makes me think of my mom who's at home 24/7 (well, pretty much really) with endless amounts of housework to do (mainly because we mess things up) and her main entertainment is the few games on the home pc and television. Putting the fact that she's really amazing at spider solitaire and solitaire aside (yikes the irony), I just kind of feel for her, especially during this hols. It's a real comfort to come home knowing that mom's waiting, though it makes coming back late a problem. But I really hope that mom will be able to find something to occupy her time and live more for herself again.
Having conflicting thoughts about going on an overseas exchange programme because at the moment I'm still terribly terribly lost as to where I want to go, and I don't want to go for the sake of going if it adds an additional financial burden on my parents (loans are well and fine but...it's still a burden). Going somewhere for the sake of going out of Singapore seems rather frivolous if it's the only reason. Thinking of going japan because I like the culture and am most familiar with their designs (comparatively) with such a weak understanding of japanese is silly. Dang it I need to research, but somehow the scope is so wide I feel a little lost.
I've just realised that I'm terribly lost when it comes to anything regarding travel, education and life outside of Singapore. Somehow travelling overseas is fascinating but not nearly something I feel very passionate about.I guess sometimes being happy with the state of things can be a wee bit problematic because sometimes I end up not being motivated because I don't want-WANT things enough.
Muddling around in the dark as regards what I want to do as a designer is starting to get really frustrating. Just hoping that cleaning my room will grant me a greater clarity of mind.
staying at home for the hols is well and fine but there's such a tendency to slack the day away. It makes me think of my mom who's at home 24/7 (well, pretty much really) with endless amounts of housework to do (mainly because we mess things up) and her main entertainment is the few games on the home pc and television. Putting the fact that she's really amazing at spider solitaire and solitaire aside (yikes the irony), I just kind of feel for her, especially during this hols. It's a real comfort to come home knowing that mom's waiting, though it makes coming back late a problem. But I really hope that mom will be able to find something to occupy her time and live more for herself again.
Having conflicting thoughts about going on an overseas exchange programme because at the moment I'm still terribly terribly lost as to where I want to go, and I don't want to go for the sake of going if it adds an additional financial burden on my parents (loans are well and fine but...it's still a burden). Going somewhere for the sake of going out of Singapore seems rather frivolous if it's the only reason. Thinking of going japan because I like the culture and am most familiar with their designs (comparatively) with such a weak understanding of japanese is silly. Dang it I need to research, but somehow the scope is so wide I feel a little lost.
I've just realised that I'm terribly lost when it comes to anything regarding travel, education and life outside of Singapore. Somehow travelling overseas is fascinating but not nearly something I feel very passionate about.I guess sometimes being happy with the state of things can be a wee bit problematic because sometimes I end up not being motivated because I don't want-WANT things enough.
Muddling around in the dark as regards what I want to do as a designer is starting to get really frustrating. Just hoping that cleaning my room will grant me a greater clarity of mind.