Can't sleep.
And I know why.
I FINALLY had two days off. Then I skipped school after Harry Potter. We were only learning perms and no one gets perms anyway.
Tomorrow I have school at 8am, then work's being a bitch and I have to miss some class to work at 3pm-11pm. Bastards.
Heh, want to know just how much I HATE that place? I had a dream last night, after two lovely days away from there, and dreamed I was driving a bitchy guest off a cliff trying to explain to her the difference between garentee and requests. So I oblidged to show her that I would GARENTEE she would die going over the edge.
I'm not a happy person lately. I'm really, really hating this. I'm angry quite often and saying rude things I normally would never even THINK. I was always so easy going and passive, but today I almost bitched a guy out for cutting in line to the fucking ketchup dispenser (bought Jeremiah lunch at Arbies).
I can't seem to let things go. In Cali.. or maybe it's just Fresno, people are so openly rude and into themselves and they get away with it. I dunno about you, but back home you actually worked for what you earned and were forced to wait your goddamn turn.
Where was my thought? Oh yeah... so I need to just focus on me, right? Just.. me... number one priority is a different job. If not soon, I'm going to walk out of FFI and not have any way to pay my bills. I'm talking soon as in the next few weeks or so. I'm at the end of my rope. I've come close to a few but something always comes up, or a suck at an interview I thought I had nailed.
*sigh* I think I'm actually overqualified for some of the jobs I want, management wise, and underqualified for things that I want to do; like make up.
And this is all adding to this disgusting anger that keeps lingering. What am I angry at?
Fresno, for one, for being dirty and unimaginative. For TRAPPING people here and making THEM hate it so it rubs off. For the FUCKING triple didget heat so everyone has a faint scent of BO all summer. For the fact that this camping trip the weekend after next that's been planned for about a month now I still don't know if I can get off... it's Jeremiah and I's 1 year anaversity, spending it with great friends... but I have a feeling Keith and his horrible lack of community spirit and helpfulness will pretend he never saw the request day. Again.
Angry that I'm sure Jeremiah will get to go without me, and angry I don't have the heart to ask him to stay behind without me.
I'm angry we're in this DISGUSTING house and I feel like I can't do anything because it's his PARENT'S house. Great people, but they don't do upkeep.
Angry I don't have the money to move out into my own apartment. Angry that I was promised full time at a hotel that I'm only getting 25 hours for for dirt wages.
I get so PISSED when I'm cut off on the road.. the highway.. when fucking pedestrians DON"T have the right of way but pretend they do. When people stand up on your ass when you're waiting in line so you can feel their breath down your neck. I don't care if you're in a hurry, getting into my personal space isn't going to make the line go faster. HATE it when people rush up to take the check out line when you haven't even swiped your card yet. Excuse me, that's my pin number your attempting to look at, go the FUCK away.
Just because I can wait paitently doesn't mean you get to cut.
I hate Keith. This guy that thinks I owe him something. This moron who pretends he's better than everyone because he teaches anger managment classes when, honestly, he incites a LOT of anger from my fellow employees. Yeah, it's not just me folks.
I'm pissed that Everette won't do anything about it. That Jay still calls the shots and he won't tell him "Hey, I'm the GM. I make the decisions."
I hate walking into class and something of mine is stolen. I hate hair.
I'm angry when the girls act like they know more than me... and yeah, duh, I'm aware I can't do a veyr good perm. I'm practing though while your fat ass is sitting around smoking a dooby outside on the benches.
I can't stand all these girls that shave their brows and then fill them in.
I hate that I couldn't wait until October for the Estaticion class and went right into Cosmetology. Smart... real smart, dumb ass.
I'm angry that I'm angry all the time.
I'm PISSED that I haven't gotten to go on any trips that I want to go on. I want to go back to San Fran... not Yosemite.
Whatever... whatever... I'm supposed to be getting up in about four hours for a 15 hour day.
I FINALLY had two days off. Then I skipped school after Harry Potter. We were only learning perms and no one gets perms anyway.
Tomorrow I have school at 8am, then work's being a bitch and I have to miss some class to work at 3pm-11pm. Bastards.
Heh, want to know just how much I HATE that place? I had a dream last night, after two lovely days away from there, and dreamed I was driving a bitchy guest off a cliff trying to explain to her the difference between garentee and requests. So I oblidged to show her that I would GARENTEE she would die going over the edge.
I'm not a happy person lately. I'm really, really hating this. I'm angry quite often and saying rude things I normally would never even THINK. I was always so easy going and passive, but today I almost bitched a guy out for cutting in line to the fucking ketchup dispenser (bought Jeremiah lunch at Arbies).
I can't seem to let things go. In Cali.. or maybe it's just Fresno, people are so openly rude and into themselves and they get away with it. I dunno about you, but back home you actually worked for what you earned and were forced to wait your goddamn turn.
Where was my thought? Oh yeah... so I need to just focus on me, right? Just.. me... number one priority is a different job. If not soon, I'm going to walk out of FFI and not have any way to pay my bills. I'm talking soon as in the next few weeks or so. I'm at the end of my rope. I've come close to a few but something always comes up, or a suck at an interview I thought I had nailed.
*sigh* I think I'm actually overqualified for some of the jobs I want, management wise, and underqualified for things that I want to do; like make up.
And this is all adding to this disgusting anger that keeps lingering. What am I angry at?
Fresno, for one, for being dirty and unimaginative. For TRAPPING people here and making THEM hate it so it rubs off. For the FUCKING triple didget heat so everyone has a faint scent of BO all summer. For the fact that this camping trip the weekend after next that's been planned for about a month now I still don't know if I can get off... it's Jeremiah and I's 1 year anaversity, spending it with great friends... but I have a feeling Keith and his horrible lack of community spirit and helpfulness will pretend he never saw the request day. Again.
Angry that I'm sure Jeremiah will get to go without me, and angry I don't have the heart to ask him to stay behind without me.
I'm angry we're in this DISGUSTING house and I feel like I can't do anything because it's his PARENT'S house. Great people, but they don't do upkeep.
Angry I don't have the money to move out into my own apartment. Angry that I was promised full time at a hotel that I'm only getting 25 hours for for dirt wages.
I get so PISSED when I'm cut off on the road.. the highway.. when fucking pedestrians DON"T have the right of way but pretend they do. When people stand up on your ass when you're waiting in line so you can feel their breath down your neck. I don't care if you're in a hurry, getting into my personal space isn't going to make the line go faster. HATE it when people rush up to take the check out line when you haven't even swiped your card yet. Excuse me, that's my pin number your attempting to look at, go the FUCK away.
Just because I can wait paitently doesn't mean you get to cut.
I hate Keith. This guy that thinks I owe him something. This moron who pretends he's better than everyone because he teaches anger managment classes when, honestly, he incites a LOT of anger from my fellow employees. Yeah, it's not just me folks.
I'm pissed that Everette won't do anything about it. That Jay still calls the shots and he won't tell him "Hey, I'm the GM. I make the decisions."
I hate walking into class and something of mine is stolen. I hate hair.
I'm angry when the girls act like they know more than me... and yeah, duh, I'm aware I can't do a veyr good perm. I'm practing though while your fat ass is sitting around smoking a dooby outside on the benches.
I can't stand all these girls that shave their brows and then fill them in.
I hate that I couldn't wait until October for the Estaticion class and went right into Cosmetology. Smart... real smart, dumb ass.
I'm angry that I'm angry all the time.
I'm PISSED that I haven't gotten to go on any trips that I want to go on. I want to go back to San Fran... not Yosemite.
Whatever... whatever... I'm supposed to be getting up in about four hours for a 15 hour day.