a drive

[elusive_sheep]

still waiting
for something
or maybe just looking
actively out there
i can't even tell anymore

it's getting dark
cold and disgusting
i don't know
how much more i can take
why isn't this ending?

where the hell are you?

you're too far away
you had the chance
you didn't stay

i need this, to feel alive
to live and go on
another fucking bee,
buzzing by the hive

it's routine,
it's pointless and dead
not a single colour left
no meaning
don't get out of bed

i will find a reason to try
i will uncover something worth living for
something worth dying for

resigned to fate, everything else is just
a minor detail.