Beige Alerts And Uncertainties
After a month hiatus from updating, primarily from a lack of motivation in composing anything here, I figure I might as well maximize my insomnia time and put forth some attention to my neglected journal. For the most part, I've refrained primarily because recent events have either been unresolved or unpleasant, and having them resurface here would just ruin my denial... though I suppose it's more of a cognitive dissidence thing than actual denial if I'm conscious of it in the first place.
Fortunately, not everything has been negative or tentative. All of the guinea pigs are doing well, and since I just cleaned their cage the other day, they have the opportunity to enjoy their ultra-absorbent epic bedding; epic not only because of the quality, but because it's purple in color. Also, I've had a few opportunities to interact with some friends in Davis as well as Sarah and J in Sacramento, so my socialization hasn't been limited solely to rodents and my much less charismatic coworkers.
Speaking of work, funding for the academic year after next seems highly unlikely, and as such, I probably won't be in the same research position the summer after this one. Additionally, I'm not quite certain about the funding for this upcoming academic year, and so most of the researchers might be transferred to part time. Though I'd likely prefer working fewer hours, any potential decrease in salary could be devastating. At the moment, my income barely exceeds my expenses even without any dramatic unexpected bills; so I'd either have to get a completely different job, an additional job, find a roommate, and/or move to a different place. Even if I don't have an ideal job, I do enjoy research; it's sufficiently stimulating and the academic setting is appealing. The somewhat flexible hours are a plus as well, so despite not being paid as much as I could likely earn elsewhere, having catatonic coworkers as the main complaint really isn't that bad at all. Unless I can somehow acquire one of those elusive positions as a Lottery Winner, Demigod, or independently wealthy Socialite, hopefully I won't have to look elsewhere for employment. I have been offered similar positions elsewhere, but most of them are extremely distant and not necessarily places where I would want to be anyway. As such, I'd probably end up isolated and reclusive, spending all my time talking to guinea pigs and collecting my nails in a jar. As for roommates, I don't know anyone specifically that needs a room, and I'm not really inclined to look for people randomly and find more strange Russian guys after my potatoes and other strange characters. Really, an ideal living situation would be living by myself, but next door to friends and such.
Hopefully I'll find out soon so that I can know about my living situation as well as my job situation; I anticipate having an answer for both this upcoming academic year and the next soon, so that's encouraging anyway. Otherwise, I've been extremely distracted and unable to focus, possibly because there are so many uncertainties. Davis, for as much as I enjoy it, has felt slightly claustrophobic at times, but hopefully that will change with an improvement in the weather as well, making mobility more pleasant and easier. Regardless, things have just been more nebulous than I like, and somewhat monotonous to a certain degree... sort of like I'm stuck somewhere between purgatory and a beige alert. Perhaps if I attempt to sleep again instead of ramble aimlessly, my outlook will improve.
Fortunately, not everything has been negative or tentative. All of the guinea pigs are doing well, and since I just cleaned their cage the other day, they have the opportunity to enjoy their ultra-absorbent epic bedding; epic not only because of the quality, but because it's purple in color. Also, I've had a few opportunities to interact with some friends in Davis as well as Sarah and J in Sacramento, so my socialization hasn't been limited solely to rodents and my much less charismatic coworkers.
Speaking of work, funding for the academic year after next seems highly unlikely, and as such, I probably won't be in the same research position the summer after this one. Additionally, I'm not quite certain about the funding for this upcoming academic year, and so most of the researchers might be transferred to part time. Though I'd likely prefer working fewer hours, any potential decrease in salary could be devastating. At the moment, my income barely exceeds my expenses even without any dramatic unexpected bills; so I'd either have to get a completely different job, an additional job, find a roommate, and/or move to a different place. Even if I don't have an ideal job, I do enjoy research; it's sufficiently stimulating and the academic setting is appealing. The somewhat flexible hours are a plus as well, so despite not being paid as much as I could likely earn elsewhere, having catatonic coworkers as the main complaint really isn't that bad at all. Unless I can somehow acquire one of those elusive positions as a Lottery Winner, Demigod, or independently wealthy Socialite, hopefully I won't have to look elsewhere for employment. I have been offered similar positions elsewhere, but most of them are extremely distant and not necessarily places where I would want to be anyway. As such, I'd probably end up isolated and reclusive, spending all my time talking to guinea pigs and collecting my nails in a jar. As for roommates, I don't know anyone specifically that needs a room, and I'm not really inclined to look for people randomly and find more strange Russian guys after my potatoes and other strange characters. Really, an ideal living situation would be living by myself, but next door to friends and such.
Hopefully I'll find out soon so that I can know about my living situation as well as my job situation; I anticipate having an answer for both this upcoming academic year and the next soon, so that's encouraging anyway. Otherwise, I've been extremely distracted and unable to focus, possibly because there are so many uncertainties. Davis, for as much as I enjoy it, has felt slightly claustrophobic at times, but hopefully that will change with an improvement in the weather as well, making mobility more pleasant and easier. Regardless, things have just been more nebulous than I like, and somewhat monotonous to a certain degree... sort of like I'm stuck somewhere between purgatory and a beige alert. Perhaps if I attempt to sleep again instead of ramble aimlessly, my outlook will improve.