Sleepy
there are many times during the day i ask myself "why the hell do i do this, i know so many people who get by just being themselves and living with it. why the hell do i try and change myself when i can be totally content with who i am and my flaws. what does it matter? i could just free float through each day if i really wanted to, not being accountable to anyone. i could spend half my day in class and the other half on a gaming console and repeat that everyday for years on in. why wake up? why sit through meetings? why read books that have nothing to do with my major? why go through the trouble of C/SC and assessment? why should i recognize my weaknesses and criticisms? WHY?!?!?!"
the simple answer:
"because the people deserve better. the people around me deserve better. i deserve better."
i hope people see that i'm trying. because i am. i may be slower in some areas than others. but i'm trying. i just need help some/ most of the time.
in the shower i realized that i'm only chair for a couple more months. and how sad and happy that makes me all at the same time.
piece.
the simple answer:
"because the people deserve better. the people around me deserve better. i deserve better."
i hope people see that i'm trying. because i am. i may be slower in some areas than others. but i'm trying. i just need help some/ most of the time.
in the shower i realized that i'm only chair for a couple more months. and how sad and happy that makes me all at the same time.
piece.