the urge...
to b/p is getting stronger! Why...it's only been 3 days? I guess that shows what a frickin' addiction it truly is! ick. Im proud though..I neeedd to keep going. It's so hard because especially toward the end of the nite...
i.e. today i had 1 serving h.w. pretzels, 2 glasses of healthy balance grape juice, then ate at my friend josie's. She made me a salad with sweet/sour dressing, some zucchini cooked in (butter!) and a scoop of baked beans...then we went and had choc frozen yogurt, then we got 12 oz coffees at sheetz....and then I came home and had 1 more serving of pretzels. fucking pig. sure, it's not a b/p...but oink oink...luckily i stopped myself..but once the guilt sets in i usually go..might as well b/p bc i suck! Idk. At least I gymed it today.:)
Then, I went to my friend's for dinner..then the aforementioned places for food/drink..then we saw Mamma Mia! Im not a huge musical fan..but it was cute. (i would have rather seen the dark knight, which is funny bc my usual taste is way cheesy and girly!) Then we went to her house and watched 'what a girl wants.' Im suchh a sap and sucker for realllyyy corny romantic comedies...hah. And the boy in it is a bit young looking..but my ideal guy! Tan skin,dark hair, and BRITISH! Their accents are to die for. If i ever study abroad thru Pitt, England here I come!
I just got home...and prob should get some sleep for once..but i have a hard time. I need to snap myself out of this..classes start in one month basically and M-F my classes are at 930 or 10...wonnnddderfful. I couldnt get my butt out of bed for ym 11 ones! Yuck. Oh well. Im excited to get out of the house and move into my dorm room..but scared bc it's a single and afraid i wont make any friends yet again.
Well, im done typing. I really want to go to therapy...is that weird? 2 times/month is not enough!!!!!!!!!! It helps to go and talk and by the time i get there every other week i forget what has happened..sigh. I guess ill see if i need to up it eventually. Insurance is a racket, though. its crazy i once went to my old T 2xs/week which equals 8 times a month! 4 times what im doing now..oh well...
NightNight.
Pray for no slips! It's so hard to fight the urge to b/p...but i cant do this forever! I'd prob die eventually....
i.e. today i had 1 serving h.w. pretzels, 2 glasses of healthy balance grape juice, then ate at my friend josie's. She made me a salad with sweet/sour dressing, some zucchini cooked in (butter!) and a scoop of baked beans...then we went and had choc frozen yogurt, then we got 12 oz coffees at sheetz....and then I came home and had 1 more serving of pretzels. fucking pig. sure, it's not a b/p...but oink oink...luckily i stopped myself..but once the guilt sets in i usually go..might as well b/p bc i suck! Idk. At least I gymed it today.:)
Then, I went to my friend's for dinner..then the aforementioned places for food/drink..then we saw Mamma Mia! Im not a huge musical fan..but it was cute. (i would have rather seen the dark knight, which is funny bc my usual taste is way cheesy and girly!) Then we went to her house and watched 'what a girl wants.' Im suchh a sap and sucker for realllyyy corny romantic comedies...hah. And the boy in it is a bit young looking..but my ideal guy! Tan skin,dark hair, and BRITISH! Their accents are to die for. If i ever study abroad thru Pitt, England here I come!
I just got home...and prob should get some sleep for once..but i have a hard time. I need to snap myself out of this..classes start in one month basically and M-F my classes are at 930 or 10...wonnnddderfful. I couldnt get my butt out of bed for ym 11 ones! Yuck. Oh well. Im excited to get out of the house and move into my dorm room..but scared bc it's a single and afraid i wont make any friends yet again.
Well, im done typing. I really want to go to therapy...is that weird? 2 times/month is not enough!!!!!!!!!! It helps to go and talk and by the time i get there every other week i forget what has happened..sigh. I guess ill see if i need to up it eventually. Insurance is a racket, though. its crazy i once went to my old T 2xs/week which equals 8 times a month! 4 times what im doing now..oh well...
NightNight.
Pray for no slips! It's so hard to fight the urge to b/p...but i cant do this forever! I'd prob die eventually....