MUSIC
SO today, I had a bad lesson. It started out that I came in and was sick- and for one- I should not be singing when I am sick because it messes with my vocal chords. The second thing is my voice teacher got really mad at me. This has been one of my hardest semesters. I have had no time to do anything outside of school. She seems to expect me to devot all of my time to music. I am sorry if I don't want to be some Opera singer and just sing to keep my voice in shape, but getting yelled at just makes me find music not that fun. You can say- you have so much potential and talent- Yeah I know I do but hey- I have academic work to do. This is a lesson NOT an academic class that I write 12 page papers on anticlericalism and clerical celibacy for!AH! Why is there all this pressure. I just want to sing for fun and not have to feel like it is no fun for me! Another note, I have been singing 3 pieces this semester and one of them we decided last week that I was not going to sing at juries and today my teacher was like sing the third piece. My accompianist and I looked at each other blankly and I stumbled my way through it. For one, we have not sang the piece in 6 weeks at least because we have been working on the other two and for two she told me not to sing it at Juries (final exam)! AHHH! She said... I would never assign a piece that you were not going to perform somewhere! Then she asks if I am going to come to this thing next week. For one, I have a paper due the next day and for two, I have another research paper that I need to work on! So my answer is no. It seems she is very dissappointed that I find Religious studies more interesting than Music- but I really enjoy the challenge of analyzing scripture and other concepts in religion. I mean what is more fun than writing a paper on Clerical celibacy or on women with in the United Methodist Church and their role as clergy or an exegesis on Isaiah 55 or an analysis of 2 Peter. I think that is so much more fascinating than anything else but maybe I am this big religious history geek! I think that is just what I am... one big kid that loves to learn and had more fun this semester stressed out than any other semester before.
On another note, I say my brother's away message tonight. It was something about my grandmother who died this past August. It has been really hard year with all of that and it just brought up all of it again. I guess you know what I mean. She was an amazing Godly woman who showed me Christ and that is the reason why I know Jesus. But still it is totally hard. I hate this grief thing most of the time. I am still having a hard time accepting that she died almost a year ago- that is why TN does not feel like home.
On another note, I say my brother's away message tonight. It was something about my grandmother who died this past August. It has been really hard year with all of that and it just brought up all of it again. I guess you know what I mean. She was an amazing Godly woman who showed me Christ and that is the reason why I know Jesus. But still it is totally hard. I hate this grief thing most of the time. I am still having a hard time accepting that she died almost a year ago- that is why TN does not feel like home.