Feeling wrung out like a rag...
... but at least I no longer feel twisted in knots. That's a massive improvement compared to Sunday Night / Monday Morning.
The Big Boss / Department Head called us staff members into a meeting today. Long story short: Change is coming. Some good, some bad, some just plain "try to do things differently and see if they work better". If I weren't naturally fearful of change, I suppose I wouldn't be bothered at all.... but there's one other thing that's bugging me:
I don't feel like I've been a particularly good "Team Leader" for the past six months. Granted, nobody's asked me to give up the position, nor has anybody "yelled" at me. But I've been forgetful with paperwork and other such bureaucratic stuff... and the honest truth is I haven't particularly enjoyed the responsibilities that come with this "job".
Part of me is tempted to request that this "burden" be taken from me, and let someone else have a shot. OTOH, I know I've been depressed lately, I have a history of being overcritical of my own achievements... and I can't honestly say that I *HATE* the responsibility; I'd just rather write code instead.
So for the time being, I've decided to keep "plugging away", and try to learn to do better in the future. Nothing ventured, nothing gained... right?
The Big Boss / Department Head called us staff members into a meeting today. Long story short: Change is coming. Some good, some bad, some just plain "try to do things differently and see if they work better". If I weren't naturally fearful of change, I suppose I wouldn't be bothered at all.... but there's one other thing that's bugging me:
I don't feel like I've been a particularly good "Team Leader" for the past six months. Granted, nobody's asked me to give up the position, nor has anybody "yelled" at me. But I've been forgetful with paperwork and other such bureaucratic stuff... and the honest truth is I haven't particularly enjoyed the responsibilities that come with this "job".
Part of me is tempted to request that this "burden" be taken from me, and let someone else have a shot. OTOH, I know I've been depressed lately, I have a history of being overcritical of my own achievements... and I can't honestly say that I *HATE* the responsibility; I'd just rather write code instead.
So for the time being, I've decided to keep "plugging away", and try to learn to do better in the future. Nothing ventured, nothing gained... right?