I doubt my tears will ever stop falling. My soul will never be the same. I love you more than anything in my life. You are my shelter and I would die without you. Walking away is a very very hard things to do sometimes but you just have to do it if that's the only answer. I never can take happiness in the pain of what you feel. I tried to tell you to do what your heart tells you. I did and maybe my heart was lying to me. *sighs* I really don't know. The confusion of what's been happening the past few days has gotten my in to a whirlwind of emotions and tears. All we can do is try to do what is right for us and what we think is the answer. Personally, I want to run far away from here and hide again. Try to close myself off again and never let anyone in, but that would require me to lose you forever and never feel a love that makes me particularly whole. I'm still gonna look for something to complete me, I am. Maybe it's not here. Maybe I'll have to leave and find it before I feel like myself again. I'm just not sure. I'll keep thinking about it *holds head* My head is spinning now. This confusion kills me and the pain you are going through does too. It's clean that I'm just dying inside over all this and I'm fighting with myself on what I can do to help. I'm helpless here and I hate that. Just know I do love you girl. I will always love you. I like to say that time holds all answers but why should you believe me when I can't even believe myself....
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thank you... for makin me feel shit loads better.
-turns over under the covers and huffs-
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