It's amazing...
It is amazing how I even remembered the log-in information for this damn thing. It has been ages since I have logged on and posted anything. A lot has changed in my life. Things shift, priorities are different. I am married to an amazing man and we have the most awesome son anyone could ever ask for. Somehow my life has fallen into place. The experiences that I had growing up all shaped me to be this person I see in the mirror today. I am a strong woman who is an incredibly good mother. My son is any parents dream. He is well-behaved, polite, handsome, so funny, clever, and loving. He is everything I could have hoped he would be and he is only two! Lately I have been feeling down even though I have so much going for me in my life. It's like being a wife and mother have taken over and I don't get to be Elisa anymore. Not that I really know who that is. In high school I was so plagued by fear of social interaction that I never actually found out what I liked to do because I spent my time hiding from the world. Now I wish I had taken the opportunity to let people see me. To go out and do all the fun things teenagers do. Now I am a 24 year old housewife. I start nursing school in January, but it isn't what defines me. To be honest, I still don't know who I am. I hold a lot of regret and feel like I need some epic voyage of self-discovery. Or maybe I just need to get my head out of the clouds and learn to be satisfied with what I have. It is a hell of a lot more than most.