Day Two
Day One - total smoke count = 4. It went to 4 from 1pack a day. Not too shabby. Painful, but not horrible.
Day Two - started at 0500. No morning coffee so no temptation to smoke while I talk the dog out. Did not bring ANY with me in the car to work. So, trying to break the habit of needing one when I drive. I smoke the most at work, so no cigs here either. I'm holding out as long as possible.
My Goal - smoke free by the end of the weekend.
My Reason - I don't like it anymore. I'm sick of hacking up various internal parts in the a.m. I really enjoy the endorphins from exercise. I have a hard time exercising when I'm wheezing and coughing. They are too expensive. I'm now paying $3.00/pack. That's too much. When you start considering driving up to Alabama to load up on about 20 cartons at a time to save money, it's time to quit.
Noticed Reactions - Day One I had a BAD headache till I caved in and had a smoke. I was going to a meeting on Base, and did not want to try to throttle my customer because he was talking too long (as he is wont to do) and I was cranky. I was a little nauseous afterward.
Today, as I have not had one since 1930 yesterday, I am tense, grinding my teeth, have a headache and every little noise is irritating my ears. People in the hallway need to shut the hell up before I snap. My sinuses are acting up too. Basically, I feel like I have a cold. My body is NOT happy from the drug withdrawal. I've played this game before.
I'm disliking all this crap I'm going through now. I'm writing it down as a reminder to myself why I don't want to start again. I will be healthy again. I will be able to work out without feeling like my chest is going to explode. I had gastric bypass (no minor thing) surgery 1 1/2 years ago. I have lost somewhere (depending on the scale and time of day) between 150 - 155 lbs. I am down to 180lbs. Me, Corrie, down to 180lbs. I'm a freakin size 12 (and some of those are loose)! I was w/in 5-10 years from my death due to super morbid obesity before that surgery. I want to enjoy a long healthy life. I went through all that to be HEALTHY. Why the hell would I want to keep smoking again?
Synopsis - I know I can quit. I've quit before (once for several years). I will quit now.
Day Two - started at 0500. No morning coffee so no temptation to smoke while I talk the dog out. Did not bring ANY with me in the car to work. So, trying to break the habit of needing one when I drive. I smoke the most at work, so no cigs here either. I'm holding out as long as possible.
My Goal - smoke free by the end of the weekend.
My Reason - I don't like it anymore. I'm sick of hacking up various internal parts in the a.m. I really enjoy the endorphins from exercise. I have a hard time exercising when I'm wheezing and coughing. They are too expensive. I'm now paying $3.00/pack. That's too much. When you start considering driving up to Alabama to load up on about 20 cartons at a time to save money, it's time to quit.
Noticed Reactions - Day One I had a BAD headache till I caved in and had a smoke. I was going to a meeting on Base, and did not want to try to throttle my customer because he was talking too long (as he is wont to do) and I was cranky. I was a little nauseous afterward.
Today, as I have not had one since 1930 yesterday, I am tense, grinding my teeth, have a headache and every little noise is irritating my ears. People in the hallway need to shut the hell up before I snap. My sinuses are acting up too. Basically, I feel like I have a cold. My body is NOT happy from the drug withdrawal. I've played this game before.
I'm disliking all this crap I'm going through now. I'm writing it down as a reminder to myself why I don't want to start again. I will be healthy again. I will be able to work out without feeling like my chest is going to explode. I had gastric bypass (no minor thing) surgery 1 1/2 years ago. I have lost somewhere (depending on the scale and time of day) between 150 - 155 lbs. I am down to 180lbs. Me, Corrie, down to 180lbs. I'm a freakin size 12 (and some of those are loose)! I was w/in 5-10 years from my death due to super morbid obesity before that surgery. I want to enjoy a long healthy life. I went through all that to be HEALTHY. Why the hell would I want to keep smoking again?
Synopsis - I know I can quit. I've quit before (once for several years). I will quit now.