who says you cant go home?
for whatever reason, listening to that song depresses me... b/c i truly feel like i dont have a home to go back to anymore. and whenever i go back there i become even more depressed and hate my life even more. the people that should support you more than anything are the people who seem to make me hate myself the most.
so i told my dad today that i went shopping for some new clothes. he asked me what i bought, which was some new shirts because i had gotten rid of some old shirts, but before i mentioned the fact that it was because they were old his comment to me was "you cant just go buy new clothes everytime you gain weight." nothing like the absolute worse comment to come out of your dads mouth when you are already in a not so happy mood. im soooo sick and tired of hearing shit from my own damn family about my weight. i really have been trying to change what i eat and get into a better exercise program. i took this week to relax and i plan to start over the weekend and next week. its something i need to do for myself when i am ready, not just because people keep saying shit to me. its like telling someone who smokes that they should quit... they arent going to quit until they are ready to do so. im not going to change my diet and exercise habits until im ready... so i want people to leave me alone, especially my family.....
so i told my dad today that i went shopping for some new clothes. he asked me what i bought, which was some new shirts because i had gotten rid of some old shirts, but before i mentioned the fact that it was because they were old his comment to me was "you cant just go buy new clothes everytime you gain weight." nothing like the absolute worse comment to come out of your dads mouth when you are already in a not so happy mood. im soooo sick and tired of hearing shit from my own damn family about my weight. i really have been trying to change what i eat and get into a better exercise program. i took this week to relax and i plan to start over the weekend and next week. its something i need to do for myself when i am ready, not just because people keep saying shit to me. its like telling someone who smokes that they should quit... they arent going to quit until they are ready to do so. im not going to change my diet and exercise habits until im ready... so i want people to leave me alone, especially my family.....