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Jul 31, 2005 00:18

Alright, it's pretty offical. I'm not very good at keeping petty secrets from friends. I just want people to be honest with each other, even if it is indirectly. People who spend a lot of time together should know what is going on in each other's lives. Why all the secrecy? I remember going through this earlier this year with my friends. Maybe I understand a little bit better why Reed kept things from me. It probably wasn't easy to have me explode in the way that one explodes when they've found out they've been lied to or betrayed in some sort of way. It's hard to realize that you don't know the whole story when you thought you did. Things make so much more sense though when you do know the whole story. I like that feeling. That knowing what's going on feeling. There's a part of me that says that knowing the whole story give you a perspective and a little bit of control.

I accidently told Jason that Beth's been to the Wet Spot. I have an excuse this time. I'm drunk. I mentioned it in passing, like he knew. That's awful. I kind of feel damned if I do, damned if I don't. I don't like telling Jason that the people he cares about lie to him. I don't like lying either. These are not my secrets to tell, but then why are they mine to lie for? I think I'm going to have to say right now, if you didn't already figure it out, that telling me to keep petty secrets from people that I spend a lot of time with is a bad plan. If you don't want someone to find out about something then don't tell anyone about, or better yet, don't do it.

Yeah, I'm bad at keeping secrets. We run in small circles. Eventually, everyone will know everything about everyone else. There's only so much to talk about.

Also, if you can't share your life experiences with your friends then maybe they're not really your friends. Strike that, you're not really their friend.

I'm just telling it as I see it.
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