Drugs are good
So, I found some drugs and they served their purpose. The whole point of getting them was so that I basically could talk to Jason about our whole thing, really about anything. And I did and now we talk all the time about all kinds of things. I think it's been good for us. That's not to say that my life has become drama free or to say that it wasn't a rough road getting where we are. We might have been emotional stable (in a way) while high so that anything could be said, but comin' down I didn't realize how fragile I was. So much crying. It was good though. Totally worth it.
There is drama though. I don't know how I feel about it exactly. See, Friday night Jason and I did it after my show. Laura was supposed to join us, but didn't because she was puking and didn't want to get us sick. So she stayed home with food poisoning being totally jealous that she wasn't here. Saturday night she didn't come and hang out with us either because she was hanging out with Steve (her fuck buddy) or at least that's what she told us. She came up Sunday afternoon to hang out with us for a while before going to see Macbeth in Volunteer park with us. Jason went to go take a shower and she confessed to me that she wasn't hanging out with Steve the night before but that Jake had randomly showed up at her place and she spent the night with him. Now, I don't really care that this happened. But it's kind of dumb to lie about. I don't get why she did or why she even told me that she was. Later that night (after she'd gone home) Jason was telling me about this big long conversation that he'd had with her about what she did last night and how she felt about it blah blah blah. I couldn't take it. I told him that she lied. I know that if my friends were mistreating me then I would want to know. So I told him. Of course he went into being a ball of rage. He called her and she said that she'd talk to him about it later, hung up, and shut her phone off. I don't blame her for that. Then Jason and I got in a fight about how all the people in his life (he says) end up leaving him because of Laura. I got mad because I could see myself leaving because this happens all the time and it's never going to change blah blah blah. That was the emotional fragile part of me freaking out. We worked it out though. I think sometimes it's hard to see that other people care about you.
So, anyway, Laura. She didn't talk to him yesterday either. He must have called her a bazillion times and left about 15 text messages. He also emailed her saying that he wasn't even mad at her anymore and he knew that she couldn't stop lying to him but could she please find someone other than me to talk about it with. I called her once. She didn't pick up. I left a message but she didn't call back. The only response we got from her all day was she text messaged Jason back when he said that he just wanted to know that she was okay, "How do you like that, you butt fucking son of a bitch?" Then she messaged, "It's from Team America."
So, it looks like this might be the end end of that relationship. Which is kind of disappointing. I really had a little bit of faith that this might be able to end better or that they would have found some sort of middle ground. I feel a little responsible. Then again, if you're going to lie to someone don't tell anyone who's close to them that you're lying to them. That's stupid. I don't understand what Laura's position is right now. If she's mad, I don't understand why she's mad at Jason. I'd be mad at me. I don't get it.
There is drama though. I don't know how I feel about it exactly. See, Friday night Jason and I did it after my show. Laura was supposed to join us, but didn't because she was puking and didn't want to get us sick. So she stayed home with food poisoning being totally jealous that she wasn't here. Saturday night she didn't come and hang out with us either because she was hanging out with Steve (her fuck buddy) or at least that's what she told us. She came up Sunday afternoon to hang out with us for a while before going to see Macbeth in Volunteer park with us. Jason went to go take a shower and she confessed to me that she wasn't hanging out with Steve the night before but that Jake had randomly showed up at her place and she spent the night with him. Now, I don't really care that this happened. But it's kind of dumb to lie about. I don't get why she did or why she even told me that she was. Later that night (after she'd gone home) Jason was telling me about this big long conversation that he'd had with her about what she did last night and how she felt about it blah blah blah. I couldn't take it. I told him that she lied. I know that if my friends were mistreating me then I would want to know. So I told him. Of course he went into being a ball of rage. He called her and she said that she'd talk to him about it later, hung up, and shut her phone off. I don't blame her for that. Then Jason and I got in a fight about how all the people in his life (he says) end up leaving him because of Laura. I got mad because I could see myself leaving because this happens all the time and it's never going to change blah blah blah. That was the emotional fragile part of me freaking out. We worked it out though. I think sometimes it's hard to see that other people care about you.
So, anyway, Laura. She didn't talk to him yesterday either. He must have called her a bazillion times and left about 15 text messages. He also emailed her saying that he wasn't even mad at her anymore and he knew that she couldn't stop lying to him but could she please find someone other than me to talk about it with. I called her once. She didn't pick up. I left a message but she didn't call back. The only response we got from her all day was she text messaged Jason back when he said that he just wanted to know that she was okay, "How do you like that, you butt fucking son of a bitch?" Then she messaged, "It's from Team America."
So, it looks like this might be the end end of that relationship. Which is kind of disappointing. I really had a little bit of faith that this might be able to end better or that they would have found some sort of middle ground. I feel a little responsible. Then again, if you're going to lie to someone don't tell anyone who's close to them that you're lying to them. That's stupid. I don't understand what Laura's position is right now. If she's mad, I don't understand why she's mad at Jason. I'd be mad at me. I don't get it.