Trying
The last few days, I've been trying really hard to be perky. Heck, I'd settle for slightly cheerful. It's been difficult, but I've managed to make it. Tuesday, Valentine's Day, Eryn and I's one year anniversary, I didn't see her til late that evening. She was in the hospital helping Shaula deliver a baby most of the day, and I had play practice. Then when I finally did get to see her, after walking a couple miles in the cold to buy her the last dozen red roses and last box of chocolates at Hutches, she was exhausted, so I got her food and put her to bed. And then went home and watched Hero, which is a very weird but very cool movie. Not exactly what I had planned for V-Day, but hey, eh, whatev, it worked out.
Then yesterday I was her escort to the Pageant Sponsors Dinner. The food was good, and I had real fun about 15 minutes the entire time. The rest was all fakey smiles, forced laughs, expected questions and monotonous answers. Sure, we all played the rich man's social game, making small talk and pretending there was nothing else we'd rather do, and I charmed quite a few people, but inside I hated it. I hate faking that I'm enjoying myself around a bunch of people who are doing the same. But at least right before that I got to see Shaula's new baby girl. SO CUTE!! So then I had play practice, which went ok, even though I found out that my newest guitar student was backing out because she "needed to learn music theory and how to read music first". Did she think I wasn't going to teach her those things? I'm a freaking music teacher! Basic music skills is what I do, by career, hobby and passion! But she's already found someone else to teach her that stuff. Grrrr...
Last night, I had a great conversation with my sister. It would've been better, except Eryn kept harassing me to get off the phone. Then when it was time to leave, I saw it was raining quite hard. And I was still dressed up from dinner. So my plan was to leave my dress shirt and vest there, and just run home in my undershirt, dancing through the rain, which I love to do. But no such luck. Eryn guilted me into taking her car. Would Peter Pan have taken a car? Would Jack Frost have driven home in the freezing rain? I think not. It was time to dance.
But then I got back and watched Futurama, which cheered me up. But then this morning right before I woke up I had a dream that involved sentimental moments with two girls I miss very much. So I woke up rather lonely and slightly depressed. And the weather reflected my mood. And my roommate was sick and crabby about that. But now I just found out my least favorite class, The Diverse Learner, is cancelled for today, as it kinda was on Tuesday, so I didn't have to go at all this week.
So all in all, it's been balanced. Something bad will happen, something good will happen. Crazy rollercoaster ride of thrills and chills, man! Was there a point to this post? Am I just complaining? Could be. Or maybe I'm not. After all, everything that happened to bring me down had a balanced event that brought me back up. That's pretty cool.
And I just saw Dr. Brown running across campus, which is pretty funny. Hee hee.
Maybe I'll talk to those girls today.
Eryn's recital is tonight. I'm looking forward to that.
"Maybe I'll just slouch around, take in the local scenery.
'Have you seen the local scenery?'
'Er...maybe I'll just slouch around."
-Conversation between Zaphod Beeblebrox and the disembodied voice on Frogstar B
The Restaurant at the End of the Universe
Then yesterday I was her escort to the Pageant Sponsors Dinner. The food was good, and I had real fun about 15 minutes the entire time. The rest was all fakey smiles, forced laughs, expected questions and monotonous answers. Sure, we all played the rich man's social game, making small talk and pretending there was nothing else we'd rather do, and I charmed quite a few people, but inside I hated it. I hate faking that I'm enjoying myself around a bunch of people who are doing the same. But at least right before that I got to see Shaula's new baby girl. SO CUTE!! So then I had play practice, which went ok, even though I found out that my newest guitar student was backing out because she "needed to learn music theory and how to read music first". Did she think I wasn't going to teach her those things? I'm a freaking music teacher! Basic music skills is what I do, by career, hobby and passion! But she's already found someone else to teach her that stuff. Grrrr...
Last night, I had a great conversation with my sister. It would've been better, except Eryn kept harassing me to get off the phone. Then when it was time to leave, I saw it was raining quite hard. And I was still dressed up from dinner. So my plan was to leave my dress shirt and vest there, and just run home in my undershirt, dancing through the rain, which I love to do. But no such luck. Eryn guilted me into taking her car. Would Peter Pan have taken a car? Would Jack Frost have driven home in the freezing rain? I think not. It was time to dance.
But then I got back and watched Futurama, which cheered me up. But then this morning right before I woke up I had a dream that involved sentimental moments with two girls I miss very much. So I woke up rather lonely and slightly depressed. And the weather reflected my mood. And my roommate was sick and crabby about that. But now I just found out my least favorite class, The Diverse Learner, is cancelled for today, as it kinda was on Tuesday, so I didn't have to go at all this week.
So all in all, it's been balanced. Something bad will happen, something good will happen. Crazy rollercoaster ride of thrills and chills, man! Was there a point to this post? Am I just complaining? Could be. Or maybe I'm not. After all, everything that happened to bring me down had a balanced event that brought me back up. That's pretty cool.
And I just saw Dr. Brown running across campus, which is pretty funny. Hee hee.
Maybe I'll talk to those girls today.
Eryn's recital is tonight. I'm looking forward to that.
"Maybe I'll just slouch around, take in the local scenery.
'Have you seen the local scenery?'
'Er...maybe I'll just slouch around."
-Conversation between Zaphod Beeblebrox and the disembodied voice on Frogstar B
The Restaurant at the End of the Universe