Struggles
I've been struggling a lot lately with not feeling resentful about not having the house to myself at times. I love my parents, yet they are ever present. When I am sitting watch the tv (which is very rarely), I feel like they are always coming in, asking me what I'm watching, talking to me, when all I want is quiet time alone. In the morning, when I wake up before the kids, I would love to have that peaceful solitude to myself, but never get it. I wish there was a place for me to hide and be by myself, but I always get followed or called upon for something.
There are times it really bothers me, other times it doesn't, so I know it's just me an how I am reacting/feeling that day, but I can't help but feel guilty about feeling that way. Isn't that crazy? I feel GUILTY for not wanting people around me. I must admit, that after almost 4 years, with all of us living together, it has been a very smooth process, and I'm grateful for that. I just get that itchy "touched out" feeling sometimes, similar to when you have a newborn who is constantly on you, next to you, needing you. You just eventually need a break from the constant interaction.
There are times it really bothers me, other times it doesn't, so I know it's just me an how I am reacting/feeling that day, but I can't help but feel guilty about feeling that way. Isn't that crazy? I feel GUILTY for not wanting people around me. I must admit, that after almost 4 years, with all of us living together, it has been a very smooth process, and I'm grateful for that. I just get that itchy "touched out" feeling sometimes, similar to when you have a newborn who is constantly on you, next to you, needing you. You just eventually need a break from the constant interaction.