It's toxic to me
Couple of things that have been on my mind lately:
- I'm having a better summer than usual, mostly because I seem to have gotten over my inability to call people when I want to hang out with them. As a result of this I'm hanging out with Florence, Mitch, and Lacey a lot, which is of course very enjoyable.
- Florence and Mitch are both really into punk rock right now, which is getting me back into it, which is exciting. I didn't realize how much I missed punk music but now I'm rediscovering all these great bands and songs, and I want to go to a show.
- Despite all the good things in my life right now, I'm still in summer mode, and I've been unreasonably depressive lately. Not when I'm with people, naturally, but just sometimes when I'm alone in front of the computer. The logical thing to do is not be alone in front of the computer, but because I'm not a creature of logic apparently, I just spent the last hour or so looking up old LJ and Xanga entries from when I was miserable. I was looking for funny overdramatic ones actually, but I guess I'm not in the right frame of mind for it because they were mostly embarrassing and sad. And then I stumbled into the entries from last year when I was very miserable, and it's still current enough to hurt. I don't think most of the stuff from that period of my life will ever be funny.
- What else? Oh, Florence blew my mind today by saying that a lot of our mutual male friends have said that, if it weren't for my face, I'd be the hottest person they know. Which is crazy to think about, and kind of a huge ego boost (the face thing doesn't bug me because I know my face isn't that great and I don't actually care).
- And lastly, um, if Corinne, Chi, Cecile, or Alyssa still read this...I want to talk to you guys again. I miss you all.