Thanksgiving..another holiday...another hole
hello wonderful readers...my faithful ventures into my tortured mind....yes we all know what time it is...ashley's morbid holidays brought to you on behalf of ashley's black soul that she keeps in her closet...no I'm just kidding...Holidays always make me depressed..even days such as these where we think of anything and everything that we can that we are thankful of..right now I'm thankful for midol...and rootbeer...and...kelly clarkson..and the beautiful music that she provides....but holidays make me upset cause I have to think of all the ppl that arn't here to enjoy them with me anymore...my dad...my papa jim...my grandma...all kinds of ppl...I hate it though..then there is the whole what about all the other ppl in the world who aren't as fortunate as me and they can't have holidays...they dont' get thanksgiving...then there is the monthly time that turns me into a sniveling ball of rags every time the least little thing happens and a couple have happened tonight grr upon the world.....I was talking over with someone close to me earlier that how come for some ppl such as myself why it is easier to talk to a perfect stranger than to talk to someone such as your mother or something..my mother doesn't even know my favorite color none the less know what I want to be when I grow up all the way...I don't know...maybe because there arn't any strings attached or maybe because the person doesn't know you and isn't afraid to hurt your feelings if they see something in a different light...speaking of different lights..I was sitting with my cousin britney and her mother, my aunt, linda...we were watching the stupid show the worlds next top model and there was this one girl named Kim who got like voted off or something and then my aunt goes "good I didnt' want her on there anyway" and I asked her why and she goes "cause she is a lesbian that's nasty I can't believer they let her on the show in the first place" I went off on her...It makes me so mad...I hate it when ppl hate other ppl just because they are different she says she isn't raciest..but she is she just doesn't see it.And there my dearest..is a few of the reasons why I'm not feeling so well...I love you...
ashley
ashley