...God is only a prayer away...
So I haven't updated in a couple of days. My life is pretty much all over the place these days, and that makes it hard to articulate my thoughts and feelings.
There are times when everything is okay and my mom and I laugh together and enjoy pleasant conversation and it's really nice to connect with her and stuff, especially now that it's just the two of us. But there are other times when we're both screaming and crying and I sit in corners and think to myself, "I wish I were dead" over and over again. It's really an emotional roller coaster. But I am learning that my mom and I both share the same feelings about this whole house project; we're both totally frustrated about how long it's taking and the massive amount of work it is with thousands of little details that have to be taken care of and the heat is getting to us because our air conditioning has been decommissioned, and we both feel sad about leaving our home and selling it and living somewhere else. It's just hard. When we pull together things are just so great and when we don't they're just so terrible. I really love my mom and pray to the dear lord in heaven that we'll make it through this okay and that everything will work out, because at times, I really have doubts and truly feel abandoned by God. In church today, they played "Great is thy faithfulness" and it just made me cry so much. I need God and my mom needs God just so much right now. Help us God. Please.
Great is thy faithfulness.
Great is thy faithfulness.
Morning by morning new mercies I see.
All I have needed
thy hand hath provided
Great is thy faithfulness
Lord, unto me.
There are times when everything is okay and my mom and I laugh together and enjoy pleasant conversation and it's really nice to connect with her and stuff, especially now that it's just the two of us. But there are other times when we're both screaming and crying and I sit in corners and think to myself, "I wish I were dead" over and over again. It's really an emotional roller coaster. But I am learning that my mom and I both share the same feelings about this whole house project; we're both totally frustrated about how long it's taking and the massive amount of work it is with thousands of little details that have to be taken care of and the heat is getting to us because our air conditioning has been decommissioned, and we both feel sad about leaving our home and selling it and living somewhere else. It's just hard. When we pull together things are just so great and when we don't they're just so terrible. I really love my mom and pray to the dear lord in heaven that we'll make it through this okay and that everything will work out, because at times, I really have doubts and truly feel abandoned by God. In church today, they played "Great is thy faithfulness" and it just made me cry so much. I need God and my mom needs God just so much right now. Help us God. Please.
Great is thy faithfulness.
Great is thy faithfulness.
Morning by morning new mercies I see.
All I have needed
thy hand hath provided
Great is thy faithfulness
Lord, unto me.