Oh and the other thing from today. I found out some of my good friends (and their SOs) went rafting and camping this weekend. I feel I was probably left out because I'm not a couple. Nothing worse that a fifth wheel on a camping trip apparently. We'd all even talked about it about a month ago when we were out to dinner. But now I find out from ( Read more... )

Am I really so ugly I actually repel men?

I seem to have backwards self-esteem. Most people who seem down on themselves are actually quite attractive. I, for the most part, consider myself attractive but as I seem to physically repel people who see photos of me I guess I'm wrong, wrong, wrong.

Whatever.

Today is the first day I've noticed the change in light in the evenings. It actually is getting dark later than it used to be. Sometimes I feel like I'm holding my breathe until this point, just trying to get through the darker and darker days. There's still a long way to go, but I just feel so much happier feeling the light return ( Read more... )

I ordered some exercise DVDs and started using them this week. (My god I'll do *anything* to not study. I don't think I've ever been so good about washing dishes in my life.) Anyway, they are really fun. Last night I did New York City Ballet Workout. Tonight I did Crunch - Cardio Salsa. Both were great I thought. I also ordered a Tae-Bo and a Hip- ( Read more... )

I'm having terrible self-confidence problems lately. I don't feel I do or say anything right. Pretty much hate myself on a minute to minute basis. I don't know if it's stress or what. I'm so depressed all the time. Guess I'll go eat worms.

Thanksgiving was fun. Back to studying.

Well... that was certainly one craptacular week. I'm pretty much ready to crawl into a hole and die.

Some days my self esteem just takes such a beating at school. I know it's petty, but when your whole life what you've been good at is school, when you're so used to being the fastest and smartest, when you were top 5% in high school without working much at all and finished a BS in Biochemistry with a 4.0... Oh it is so hard to be scoring average or ( Read more... )