Emotions devistated besides anger, frustration, and depression.
Thats right.. Anger. Frustration. Depression. Those are the feelings that dwell within me.. I AM SO FUCKING PISSED. But details will be sacred. I dont know what the hell is up or going on with anything no more. I guess i got this journal to vent through, but its hard to even do that with certain people reading everything I say.. I dont care to change the user name.. Im tired of changing shit. I dont give a fuck right now. Im not drunk, Im not HIgh, I'm completely sober.
One thing that pissed me off tonight was at the show.. My EX boss who "Laid me off" says "Quit the band.. just quit" and I'm like.. whatever, thats not funny and i fucking walk away. A few people were there that I felt kinda awkward with anyway were there and to see my old boss who fired me tell me i suck at singing, oh what a fucking night. But then hes like "I was only joking, let me give you some advise and blah blah" (nadia, i love you to death.. but, im sorry my feelings compel me to dislike your father.. and theres nothing i can do about it. I dont hate him, i just rather not be around him)
what else.. oh yah. some one i really really really like was there and i cant tell her how i feel. Im not confused about it. I just dont want to rush into anything.. or mess up anything. GOD you know I really wish I wasn't human right now. A robot. I fucking hate emotions, they're annoying.. DAMMIT another one, they're fuckin everywhere..
*takes in a deep breath* Anyway.. no one talked to me thats in the band after we played, I dont know if it was me that did someting wrong or not, I just dont know they dont tell me.. so im bummed out about that. Man im so trying my fucking hardest.. I swear to god I am.. Theres something wrong with me theres gotta be.
So, so far my weekend was half and half good and bad.. I need sleep i suppose.. goodnight.
One thing that pissed me off tonight was at the show.. My EX boss who "Laid me off" says "Quit the band.. just quit" and I'm like.. whatever, thats not funny and i fucking walk away. A few people were there that I felt kinda awkward with anyway were there and to see my old boss who fired me tell me i suck at singing, oh what a fucking night. But then hes like "I was only joking, let me give you some advise and blah blah" (nadia, i love you to death.. but, im sorry my feelings compel me to dislike your father.. and theres nothing i can do about it. I dont hate him, i just rather not be around him)
what else.. oh yah. some one i really really really like was there and i cant tell her how i feel. Im not confused about it. I just dont want to rush into anything.. or mess up anything. GOD you know I really wish I wasn't human right now. A robot. I fucking hate emotions, they're annoying.. DAMMIT another one, they're fuckin everywhere..
*takes in a deep breath* Anyway.. no one talked to me thats in the band after we played, I dont know if it was me that did someting wrong or not, I just dont know they dont tell me.. so im bummed out about that. Man im so trying my fucking hardest.. I swear to god I am.. Theres something wrong with me theres gotta be.
So, so far my weekend was half and half good and bad.. I need sleep i suppose.. goodnight.