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i hate that i cannot control my body, my body controls me. it makes all my decisions despite my arguing with it. the strong voice gets weaker and the dumbass -resign -yourself- to- a life- of -hating yourself -and feeling -like- a- dissapointment -ashamed -to -be -seen voice always always wins. logic loses. am i just a lazy asshole? or do i have severe psychological issues that need to be dealt with? is there something wrong with me? why am i always tired? why can't i just do the routine like everyone else,, i am my own worst enemy .
i wish i could just figure out the problem so that i could solve it, but it isn't clear.
i don't understand myself and my lack of so many things: motivation, drive, energy,...want.
i can't figure out why i try and try and try and fail every single goddamned time.
i wish i could just figure out the problem so that i could solve it, but it isn't clear.
i don't understand myself and my lack of so many things: motivation, drive, energy,...want.
i can't figure out why i try and try and try and fail every single goddamned time.