If it's just the same dear, why have you left before "forever"?
*Sigh* =\ I'm having another one of those days where I feel shitty and rejected for no reason. I think it might have something to do with the fact that I called like everyone to hang out and NO ONE could. So I pretty much sat at home all day bored and not feeling like doing anything.
Anyways.. there is another reason I feel like this but I'm not sure I want to type it in here. I don't want to seem needy or anything and I'm sure that's how it's going to come off. But some of it has to do with a few of my guy friends having assumptions that Jeffrey is just using me for sex and it's kind of making me mad.. because they barely know me and they defiantly don't know him. I honestly don't think anything of the sort about him, but for some reason they do and I don't get it but whatever. I talked to Chris... as in Sanders.. about the situation because I know he would tell me straight up if he thought anything bad and he seemed to think everything was alight and that I have nothing to worry about. I guess those other guys are just jealous that they can't have my awesomeness? lol I don't know.
But I am feeling alot better now because I actually have someone to talk to right now. I love you, Bee! :) I guess the source of my feeling of rejection was because I have barely talked to anyone today, except for my mom. I don't know.
I'm also a bit sad because I feel as though Miguel and I aren't as close as we used to be. I'm not sure if it has to do with school or him being busy or whatever, but it kind of makes me sad. He used to get online just about every night and talk to me, but then it changed to only a couple nights a week and now it's rare. And when we do talk, it's not the same. =\ He's the one person that I just can't let out of my life. I fucking love him man.. he's my best friend pretty much. I seriously think I would cry for years if we stopped talking. But I'm sure everything will be ok with that. I'll talk to him more when I start school again because I think we have classes on Tuesdays together. Well, not together, but at the same time. So that means we will prolly be going to Chipotle like every week together haha.
Alright I think that's all I have to vent about this time. I'm feeling alot better now actually. :)
Anyways.. there is another reason I feel like this but I'm not sure I want to type it in here. I don't want to seem needy or anything and I'm sure that's how it's going to come off. But some of it has to do with a few of my guy friends having assumptions that Jeffrey is just using me for sex and it's kind of making me mad.. because they barely know me and they defiantly don't know him. I honestly don't think anything of the sort about him, but for some reason they do and I don't get it but whatever. I talked to Chris... as in Sanders.. about the situation because I know he would tell me straight up if he thought anything bad and he seemed to think everything was alight and that I have nothing to worry about. I guess those other guys are just jealous that they can't have my awesomeness? lol I don't know.
But I am feeling alot better now because I actually have someone to talk to right now. I love you, Bee! :) I guess the source of my feeling of rejection was because I have barely talked to anyone today, except for my mom. I don't know.
I'm also a bit sad because I feel as though Miguel and I aren't as close as we used to be. I'm not sure if it has to do with school or him being busy or whatever, but it kind of makes me sad. He used to get online just about every night and talk to me, but then it changed to only a couple nights a week and now it's rare. And when we do talk, it's not the same. =\ He's the one person that I just can't let out of my life. I fucking love him man.. he's my best friend pretty much. I seriously think I would cry for years if we stopped talking. But I'm sure everything will be ok with that. I'll talk to him more when I start school again because I think we have classes on Tuesdays together. Well, not together, but at the same time. So that means we will prolly be going to Chipotle like every week together haha.
Alright I think that's all I have to vent about this time. I'm feeling alot better now actually. :)