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Ugh I think my bitch meter is cranked up to 11 today but I need to rant about something. I'm so fucking annoyed.
So some backstory (which I think I've mentioned before), basically my friend S and Zach have been hooking up for awhile now. He's been a complete fuckboy and destroyed her self-esteem pretty much the entire time, but now he's moved in with her and Nick and suddenly he's decided to be a decent human being and minimally apologize for his shitass behavior towards both of them. And he decided to tell S that he loves her and changed his mind about wanting to be in a relationship with her. So basically he's expecting a cookie for doing the bare minimum of being a decent human being. So here's what's really fucking irritating to me.
S has mentioned this before, but basically Zach rides her coattails SO hard and he's turned into this desperate wannabe complete with this new fake online persona that's pretty much a direct ripoff of her personality with a little bit of mine peppered in. It's so gross. S is really into urban exploration and has been doing it for years. She knows the ropes, she's smart about it. And she's been bringing him along for a few months. So now he's decided that he's an urban explorer too. He literally has it in his profile on Instagram. I saw that today and immediately unfollowed him. Like, you go on a few adventures that S voluntarily brought you on because she's fucking you and dickblind, that you never would have gone on of your own accord, and now you're suddenly a seasoned urban explorer? Lollll okay bitch.
And not only that but now he's suddenly suuuper into witchcraft and voodoo (which he was completely snarky and rude about the few times I brought it up in the past since I've been into witchcraft since age 14 and practicing for the last few years. Also, voodoo is not for your pasty white ass and you probably only have a basic, misinformed, skewed grasp on it so fuck all the way off with that). I also got him into psychobilly like...maybe less than a year ago? And all of a sudden he just LOVES Koffin Kats and Nekromantix and Hillbilly Moon explosion and is acting like he's been a huge fan for years when he had like, no knowledge that the genre even existed a year ago. We went to see Koffin Kats a few months ago and not to sound like a total elitist snob, but I was honestly pissed that he was even there acting like he's been a Koffin Kats fan 5evrr when he's barely even listened to them for a year and I've been into them for almost ten fucking years. And he's putting quotes like "don't hate me because I'm spooky" in his profiles. It's really fucking sad and pathetic honestly.
I really wouldn't care so much, in fact I would be happy for him that he's getting into all these new things, if he was actually modest about it and gave credit for his newfound interests where it's due. But the fact that he's like "Oh yeah look at me. Look how COOL and INTERESTING I am with my COOL INTERESTING music tastes that I've been into 4EVER and my URBEX ADVENTURES THAT I'VE TOTES BEEN DOING 4EVER and not just for a few months because the girl I emotionally manipulated into fucking me regularly got me into it and I'm liek SOOO INTO VOODOO N WITCHY STUFFS GUISE aren't I SO COOL LIKE LOOK AT ME I'M SPOOKY N SO AWESOME GUISE LOL *insert cheesy hot topic t-shirt slogans into every online profile*. He just looks SO desperate and pathetic to anyone that actually knows him, ESPECIALLY S and me.
It's really sad because I used to think he was fucking awesome. He showed me a lot of really cool stuff that I'm still into to this day. But now he's suddenly developed an interest in all this shit I've been interested in for YEARS, but acted like he was above it and sometimes even made me feel dumb for liking it, some of which I was actually afraid to really tell him about in depth because I was afraid he would make me feel stupid for being so interested in it. And now he's acting all brand new. That's what pisses me off the most.
And the thing that really gets me? No one calls him out. He gets to hang out with S and Nick and go everywhere with them (even before they were roommates) and every shitty thing he's done is just absolved because he's a great lay on S's end and Nick just let's him walk all over him. And okay, maybe I should mention something but I feel really left out a lot of the time. I love going places with S and Nick and I would love to go on urban explorations with them sometimes too, but no one ever fucking bothers to remember my schedule (which has been the same for the past 5 years) or even ask me. And I'm salty about it to be honest. I've been there for S through this entire shitstorm, supported her and even swallowed my own stupid insecurities and low-key jealousy that she got to fuck Zach when I never did, and I still barely get invited to hang out or go anywhere.
And it fucking sucks because I am genuinely interested in the things she does and want to get out and see them too. I'm not trying to take credit for her interests so I can get likes on Instagram or attract "alt" girls on tinder like Zach is. And I just really like spending time with her and Nick overall. That's what I really want is to just make memories with my friends but instead Zach gets to reap all the benefits of their friendship and feed his ego despite the fact he's treated both of them like utter fucking shit for years. He's so fucking manipulative. And yeah, he's charming as hell but it's just a mask. He's a shitty person that refuses to take any criticism or confront his shitty behavior unless it's 100% on his terms and only deals with the surface issues and not the deeply ingrained personality flaws he has. And the worst part is S will probably cave in to his minimal apology and bare minimum decent behavior and end up being his girlfriend, even though her self-esteem and body issues are at an all time low because of him and the foundation he created for a relationship is shaky and unstable AT BEST. I don't know why the fuck I care. Christ. I put so much fucking emotional energy into people that clearly don't fucking appreciate it and don't want to listen to anything I say or even care what I say. I need to just stop. Zach fucking wins. Whatever. Yay. Congrats on your desperate poser husk of a person, I'm out 🖕
So some backstory (which I think I've mentioned before), basically my friend S and Zach have been hooking up for awhile now. He's been a complete fuckboy and destroyed her self-esteem pretty much the entire time, but now he's moved in with her and Nick and suddenly he's decided to be a decent human being and minimally apologize for his shitass behavior towards both of them. And he decided to tell S that he loves her and changed his mind about wanting to be in a relationship with her. So basically he's expecting a cookie for doing the bare minimum of being a decent human being. So here's what's really fucking irritating to me.
S has mentioned this before, but basically Zach rides her coattails SO hard and he's turned into this desperate wannabe complete with this new fake online persona that's pretty much a direct ripoff of her personality with a little bit of mine peppered in. It's so gross. S is really into urban exploration and has been doing it for years. She knows the ropes, she's smart about it. And she's been bringing him along for a few months. So now he's decided that he's an urban explorer too. He literally has it in his profile on Instagram. I saw that today and immediately unfollowed him. Like, you go on a few adventures that S voluntarily brought you on because she's fucking you and dickblind, that you never would have gone on of your own accord, and now you're suddenly a seasoned urban explorer? Lollll okay bitch.
And not only that but now he's suddenly suuuper into witchcraft and voodoo (which he was completely snarky and rude about the few times I brought it up in the past since I've been into witchcraft since age 14 and practicing for the last few years. Also, voodoo is not for your pasty white ass and you probably only have a basic, misinformed, skewed grasp on it so fuck all the way off with that). I also got him into psychobilly like...maybe less than a year ago? And all of a sudden he just LOVES Koffin Kats and Nekromantix and Hillbilly Moon explosion and is acting like he's been a huge fan for years when he had like, no knowledge that the genre even existed a year ago. We went to see Koffin Kats a few months ago and not to sound like a total elitist snob, but I was honestly pissed that he was even there acting like he's been a Koffin Kats fan 5evrr when he's barely even listened to them for a year and I've been into them for almost ten fucking years. And he's putting quotes like "don't hate me because I'm spooky" in his profiles. It's really fucking sad and pathetic honestly.
I really wouldn't care so much, in fact I would be happy for him that he's getting into all these new things, if he was actually modest about it and gave credit for his newfound interests where it's due. But the fact that he's like "Oh yeah look at me. Look how COOL and INTERESTING I am with my COOL INTERESTING music tastes that I've been into 4EVER and my URBEX ADVENTURES THAT I'VE TOTES BEEN DOING 4EVER and not just for a few months because the girl I emotionally manipulated into fucking me regularly got me into it and I'm liek SOOO INTO VOODOO N WITCHY STUFFS GUISE aren't I SO COOL LIKE LOOK AT ME I'M SPOOKY N SO AWESOME GUISE LOL *insert cheesy hot topic t-shirt slogans into every online profile*. He just looks SO desperate and pathetic to anyone that actually knows him, ESPECIALLY S and me.
It's really sad because I used to think he was fucking awesome. He showed me a lot of really cool stuff that I'm still into to this day. But now he's suddenly developed an interest in all this shit I've been interested in for YEARS, but acted like he was above it and sometimes even made me feel dumb for liking it, some of which I was actually afraid to really tell him about in depth because I was afraid he would make me feel stupid for being so interested in it. And now he's acting all brand new. That's what pisses me off the most.
And the thing that really gets me? No one calls him out. He gets to hang out with S and Nick and go everywhere with them (even before they were roommates) and every shitty thing he's done is just absolved because he's a great lay on S's end and Nick just let's him walk all over him. And okay, maybe I should mention something but I feel really left out a lot of the time. I love going places with S and Nick and I would love to go on urban explorations with them sometimes too, but no one ever fucking bothers to remember my schedule (which has been the same for the past 5 years) or even ask me. And I'm salty about it to be honest. I've been there for S through this entire shitstorm, supported her and even swallowed my own stupid insecurities and low-key jealousy that she got to fuck Zach when I never did, and I still barely get invited to hang out or go anywhere.
And it fucking sucks because I am genuinely interested in the things she does and want to get out and see them too. I'm not trying to take credit for her interests so I can get likes on Instagram or attract "alt" girls on tinder like Zach is. And I just really like spending time with her and Nick overall. That's what I really want is to just make memories with my friends but instead Zach gets to reap all the benefits of their friendship and feed his ego despite the fact he's treated both of them like utter fucking shit for years. He's so fucking manipulative. And yeah, he's charming as hell but it's just a mask. He's a shitty person that refuses to take any criticism or confront his shitty behavior unless it's 100% on his terms and only deals with the surface issues and not the deeply ingrained personality flaws he has. And the worst part is S will probably cave in to his minimal apology and bare minimum decent behavior and end up being his girlfriend, even though her self-esteem and body issues are at an all time low because of him and the foundation he created for a relationship is shaky and unstable AT BEST. I don't know why the fuck I care. Christ. I put so much fucking emotional energy into people that clearly don't fucking appreciate it and don't want to listen to anything I say or even care what I say. I need to just stop. Zach fucking wins. Whatever. Yay. Congrats on your desperate poser husk of a person, I'm out 🖕