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So, day 5 and still no word from College Dude. Wonderful. I don't know why the fuck I ever get my hopes up when I meet someone I'm sexually compatible with. Clearly I'm not meant to have consistent, good sex. I know we're not dating and I know I shouldn't care this much but this fucking sucks. So once again, I'm moving and once again, I won't get to break in my new room.
Honestly I don't think I would care so much if he didn't talk such a big game and didn't know how to touch me. Like we're into the same things apparently and we've talked about trying a lot of things together but I guess I just have to keep all that shit to myself and hope the next dude doesn't treat my body like a sentient pocket pussy. Or I could just start dating girls again. I don't know.
I even had a weird intense sex dream last night where I was about to have sex with this guy that looked kind of like a caricature of Aaron but with really long burgundy-reddish wavy hair and a super ripped perfect body. So in the dream we were making out and he was getting undressed and I was just staring at him and getting insanely turned on, and he apparently could change his genitals at will too because when I looked down he had a pussy, but then he grabbed me so he was holding me up and I had my arms around his neck and legs around his waist and he was teasing me with his dick. And it felt insanely good too but I really wanted him to put it in me, and as soon as he was about to I think he left or I woke up. I have a bad feeling that means I'm not getting any more sex for a long time. Or at least sex I enjoy. Ugh. Thanks for getting my hopes up again, asshole 🙄
Honestly I don't think I would care so much if he didn't talk such a big game and didn't know how to touch me. Like we're into the same things apparently and we've talked about trying a lot of things together but I guess I just have to keep all that shit to myself and hope the next dude doesn't treat my body like a sentient pocket pussy. Or I could just start dating girls again. I don't know.
I even had a weird intense sex dream last night where I was about to have sex with this guy that looked kind of like a caricature of Aaron but with really long burgundy-reddish wavy hair and a super ripped perfect body. So in the dream we were making out and he was getting undressed and I was just staring at him and getting insanely turned on, and he apparently could change his genitals at will too because when I looked down he had a pussy, but then he grabbed me so he was holding me up and I had my arms around his neck and legs around his waist and he was teasing me with his dick. And it felt insanely good too but I really wanted him to put it in me, and as soon as he was about to I think he left or I woke up. I have a bad feeling that means I'm not getting any more sex for a long time. Or at least sex I enjoy. Ugh. Thanks for getting my hopes up again, asshole 🙄