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It's something crazy like E.S.P.
On my mind every night before I sleep.
Feeling down and you say something so unique, to me.
I love it.
I love you.
I love the idea of us.
I can't wait til Marisol is here. She gave me high five the other night. : ) She moves a lot more now. Not more frequently but bigger movement. It's crazy! I feel like people can see my belly moving from across the hall but I know they can't. lol.
I'm getting excited for Ohio trip. It will suck siting in a car that long because sitting isn't my most comfortable position. Kind of anxious about my besties meeting Chris. It's some darkened insecurity I developed at a young age. I would like to blame it on my first "real" boyfriend cheating on me with four out of my six best friends. lol. Oh well that was a decade ago. And these are all different people.
Well besides that I'm nervous to see Chris cause it's like his baby inside of me and last time I was nervous too but now it's like I actually look pregnant! However I'm way more excited than any thing else. : D We have been talking a lot and stuff have gotten closer I guess you could say. Plus I needs a hug. : ) Okay so I could probly scrounge up a hug from someone else but I guess I kinda want one from him, more so. -_- shh.
I can not believe my lil girl is due here in 11 weeks.
Work is starting to take it's tole on me. I just have to keep reminding myself I will get at least six weeks off in a bit! :D
I still haven't obtained a car. My parents would rather me get a new car with payments. Where as I would rather not have car payments yet. But fuck it. I always give in. I thought of the perfect ananlogy last night inthe shower. How I am with people in life.
It's like some one trying to go down your pants and you tell them "no." yet they persist. So you say "no." again but they are really determined on getting in your pants so they either do it anyways and expect you won't mind or they keep on pressuring you until you say yes. Of course if it's the latter then every time after that it is expcted that they are allowed in your pants.
well I'm kinda tired of every one getting in my pants but I've been this way my whole life and how do you change that? I'd invest in a tazzer gun but I'm not a violent mortal. : P
just some thoughts.
On my mind every night before I sleep.
Feeling down and you say something so unique, to me.
I love it.
I love you.
I love the idea of us.
I can't wait til Marisol is here. She gave me high five the other night. : ) She moves a lot more now. Not more frequently but bigger movement. It's crazy! I feel like people can see my belly moving from across the hall but I know they can't. lol.
I'm getting excited for Ohio trip. It will suck siting in a car that long because sitting isn't my most comfortable position. Kind of anxious about my besties meeting Chris. It's some darkened insecurity I developed at a young age. I would like to blame it on my first "real" boyfriend cheating on me with four out of my six best friends. lol. Oh well that was a decade ago. And these are all different people.
Well besides that I'm nervous to see Chris cause it's like his baby inside of me and last time I was nervous too but now it's like I actually look pregnant! However I'm way more excited than any thing else. : D We have been talking a lot and stuff have gotten closer I guess you could say. Plus I needs a hug. : ) Okay so I could probly scrounge up a hug from someone else but I guess I kinda want one from him, more so. -_- shh.
I can not believe my lil girl is due here in 11 weeks.
Work is starting to take it's tole on me. I just have to keep reminding myself I will get at least six weeks off in a bit! :D
I still haven't obtained a car. My parents would rather me get a new car with payments. Where as I would rather not have car payments yet. But fuck it. I always give in. I thought of the perfect ananlogy last night inthe shower. How I am with people in life.
It's like some one trying to go down your pants and you tell them "no." yet they persist. So you say "no." again but they are really determined on getting in your pants so they either do it anyways and expect you won't mind or they keep on pressuring you until you say yes. Of course if it's the latter then every time after that it is expcted that they are allowed in your pants.
well I'm kinda tired of every one getting in my pants but I've been this way my whole life and how do you change that? I'd invest in a tazzer gun but I'm not a violent mortal. : P
just some thoughts.