Dear Lord
I appreciate all the blessings but I have to wonder why my friends never last forever. Is that even a possible thing? I doubt it. This is why I can never be married? Or maybe it is because I will end up married and stay married til death do us part. It's easier for me to make friends with guys. They hit on me less but they are more dramatic. lol. I'm so mean. It's true though. Well whatever. I end up knowing a lot of people even if we don't chill all the time or ever. A part of it would be that I no longer go to parties. So I don't see people from high school.
Maybe once I go to college in a year or so I will meet new people. By then maybe I've decided if I'm continuing this life of soberity. Then I can find other sober people. Woo! Also I think I will turn vegetarian again. Only do it healthy this time around. I need my meet for the baby but after she is a few months old I may return to a non eating meat life.
One another note. Watching teen moms makes me so excited for my lil girl. They have all the struggles that people face. Arguments with their parents or lovers, break ups, dating with a baby, going to school while raising a baby, finding a job and an apartment. How exciting.
Sooo I had another nightmare last night. I knew I would because I got a mouth guard to wear at night and those have always caused me nightmares. It's because of the stress it puts on your mouth. I was like in the hospital dieing and Brad was also there but we could talk and while he was there his girlfriend told him over aim that she was killing their baby and then she took a needle and stuck it inside of her until it popped the baby sac? But him and I were still in love or what ever and I couldn't remember why I was in the hospital. I remember my sister being there with me and Brad. I also remember Brad and my mom trying to help me remember what happened to me. Maybe a car accident? I just know they had me on lots of drugs because of the trauma an pain. Weird!! woke up sweating. I haven't had a night terror since I was taking my anti anxiety pills. Irony, I know.
My little kitty is in my lap. I love my little girls. <3
Maybe once I go to college in a year or so I will meet new people. By then maybe I've decided if I'm continuing this life of soberity. Then I can find other sober people. Woo! Also I think I will turn vegetarian again. Only do it healthy this time around. I need my meet for the baby but after she is a few months old I may return to a non eating meat life.
One another note. Watching teen moms makes me so excited for my lil girl. They have all the struggles that people face. Arguments with their parents or lovers, break ups, dating with a baby, going to school while raising a baby, finding a job and an apartment. How exciting.
Sooo I had another nightmare last night. I knew I would because I got a mouth guard to wear at night and those have always caused me nightmares. It's because of the stress it puts on your mouth. I was like in the hospital dieing and Brad was also there but we could talk and while he was there his girlfriend told him over aim that she was killing their baby and then she took a needle and stuck it inside of her until it popped the baby sac? But him and I were still in love or what ever and I couldn't remember why I was in the hospital. I remember my sister being there with me and Brad. I also remember Brad and my mom trying to help me remember what happened to me. Maybe a car accident? I just know they had me on lots of drugs because of the trauma an pain. Weird!! woke up sweating. I haven't had a night terror since I was taking my anti anxiety pills. Irony, I know.
My little kitty is in my lap. I love my little girls. <3