Life,lack of love and laissez faire attitudes
So,I had my birthday and it went much better than xpected.As,I've learnt,do most things in life.
I am currently idling away my days after failing to find a job in Brighton.I went home for a few days to work which then rolled into a week and I started to slip back into my comfort zone of work,home,sheep...so I promptly removed myself from the situation.It is never a good idea for me to get too comfortable somewhere because I will inevitable set up camp and stay.
I really haven't done anything exciting (why on earth am I updating?!).Went to the stupid and unbearably hot 'nightclub' on campus at the weekend and proceeded to get mightily drunk and think I was superwoman.A moat runs round part of our campus at Sussex (oh yes,a real life moat complete with water and drowning facilities);it was this particular feat of engineering that most inspired my drunken alter ego...I tried to jump across it...
The moat is about 12ft in width and unjumpable at best.I fell and was soaked from head to toe.It was not my most elegant moment,but other people did copy me so I didn't feel so bad.After all who's more stupid,the fool,or the fools that follow the fool?
Life is more than bearable at the moment which is nice.My housemate said something today that definately resonated with me.'Maybe this is it,maybe we should stop thinking about the life we are missing out on and just live our own'.It's certainly pessimistic on one hand but makes perfect sense.Is content so bad?
Uni is over soon,I'm still in two minds about whether I will be here next year.I've switched to a degree I never wanted to do or invisioned myself doing so I've already lost most of what I wanted in my eyes.
My brain feels starved at the moment.I think I need someone to argue with or something challenging to do.
It wouldn't do to become a vegetable.
Mmmmm vegetables